[confused43]

Does anyone else feel like they don't fit into this world? I have been so depressed for months. Medication and therapy have not helped at all. I feel as though I am not met to be here. I can not find inner happieness. i hate life and am so tired of living . there is not any real reason for me to feel like this except i feel like this. therapists and psychiatrsts have pretty much given up . I have thoughts of suicide all the time and of cuting sometimes. i am constantly suicidal with out actually taking the actions to go through with it. I wonder if the feelings and thoughts will ever go away. i am starting college again in the fall.i will be staying in a dorm and iam scared of being away and using public restrooms. please anyone out there, i feel like i am the only out there that is like this.

[Kalamity]

If nothing else, you are not alone in how you feel, in any way.

I have always hated using public restrooms. As I've gotten older it has gotten a bit easier. I was taking classes last fall and found that most of the people seem to flock to the same restrooms, leaving others almost completely unused.

College also kept me so busy, and I did have people to talk to where as I otherwise wouldn't, that I actually felt better most days.

Sorry but if the therapists/psychiatrists you saw 'gave up' on you, then then were not good enough. There must be a reason you are feeling the way you do, and it is just a question of finding the appropriate professional... as frustrating/upsetting as it might appear. But you should not give up.

Can you talk to your parents? Is there a cousellor/psychologist you could see at your college?

[Rhapsody]

I have never felt as though I belonged.... I always felt as though I belong in a different time and place (in the past where things, people and morals were stronger)..... my ways & thoughts never fitted with society - I was alone.

I am better now...... Life is looking up again, after 30 long years.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[confused43]

i tried talking to my mom about how i feel and she stopped talking to me. My dad , went to the tavern for a beer and did not say anything. I dont know if there are people at the college i can talk to. i never been to the college. I am just so , so tired of all of this bs.