people leave

people leave me all the time. It must be me. I am never caring about anyone ever again because it will just be the same thing. I can't take it anymore.

(((((Echoes))))))) ----if safe.

I hear you sweetie. I feel the same way. I think that this is true for everyone. The difference for other people is that people leaving them is more manageable because they have more of a 'secure base' both within themselves, and in the diversity of emotional investments they have that serve to buffer people going.

But I hear you, I surely, surely do. It is something I'm going through now with my therapist. I know this isn't much in the way of consolation... But can you think of some constants who are still with you through this hard time? People here... Maybe people in other walks of your life? The hardest thing for me about my Father leaving was that nobody stepped up to play the role that he had played in my life. Are there other people who might be able to step up to that plate and help that role be filled a little?

Thinking of you.

(((((((((((((( ECHOES )))))))))))))))
I feel the same way sometimes. But people do care about you, including me. Sorry this isn't more (not good with words)

I don't think its you....

Echoes, yes that is true. I wonder if I unconsioulsy pick people that I have no real intimate need for, but want to see if I have the "power" to keep them? Though it sounds crazy, its that feeling when somone first leaves that I seem to be deeply invested in? LIke I'm constantly trying to make it not matter? and whilst this is going on I completely neglect/forget those that are still around me? I know how painful that place is that you are in.

I'm sorry you feel that way....I often feel the same way.

And those in my life who haven't left me, I am just waiting for them to leave since it's bound to happen sooner or later.