[(JD)]

SIgh.... the wishes for good didn't work.

My "mediation" is over... the hearing cancelled!

I'm too drained to discuss it much... my attorney doesn't get it (PTSD) though she thinks she does.

TO give a small idea of the day... my attorney bartered with items that the opposition had already agreed to in 2 previous mediations but they had not complied with... so for what they had already agreed to I had to give up stuff...

the mediator threatened me with ideas that gee, at least the opposition hasn't touched my pay... yet (which they legally can't do?!) and such scare tactics that work so well with PTSD...

I ended up with 4 things (again) they had already agreed to previously.... plus $12 a month towards something that is $70, a nutritionist CONSULTATION but NO treatment, and something the attorney was SURE we would win with the judge, so we didn't have to bargain but she did: my veneers. I had to give up past and future payments for many things, including vision care... even though I have not had proper help and had just gone to a new doctor who felt my problems are worsening and certainly due to the accident. Why why why.

I sat in my attorney's office most of the day, deteriorating by the hour but had no real sense of time. Long times alone though... found out when I was leaving, THEY had all taken a lunch break! (I didn't even realize lunchtime) and had not offered me even water all day.

I had to sign an agreement to cancel the hearing next week... talk about duress

I can't believe what happened... true to form of PTSD.

Thanks anyway, for the kind thoughts.

_Sky,

It sounds beyond overwhelming to anyone who doesn't know the background of your case but to those of us who have read your past year here this is unbelievable.

I'm hopeful you are in contact with your psychologist as much as you need to be. This is a time where he really needs to be extra available for you. I am glad the two of you have such a good working relationship.

Rest up from this nightmare. Take your time in coming back. Do so when you're feeling more clear from all this. I still have days where a trigger will cause me to sleep the entire next day or so as a protective measure.

So sorry to hear how Wednesday went.

Please stay safe.

I'm so sorry Sky. It's such an amazing situation. I just sit and shake my head at the injustice. I'm always shocked when people are intentionally cruel to people in need.

Wishing you peace. emmy

[krzyk101]

Sky,

I am sorry to hear of this mistreatment towards your and your needs. I just wanted you to know I think you are a nice person and that I am sorry this ended up this way.

Be Safe-

Chris

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((((((( sky )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i'm so very very sorry that it turned out that way. i'm thinking of you constantly.

be well in my hopes for you.

kd

[Nerak]

(((((((((((Sky))))))))))) I am sorry you are going through this.

[(JD)]

Sigh. Tks folks. It's nearly impossible to believe how it all went down... the farther I get from it, it more I think, see, how I was SOOOOO manipulated!

I have no clue about being able to reneg on the mediation agreement..but if it's to be done it has to be Monday which is the third day after the contract...if it falls into that area. I doubt it.

I have been victimized again, and from time to time during the day my attorney would come into her office (where I sat alone all day) and say, " You're the decision maker here..." and leave.

The mediator was more of a judge and jury...even arguing with me about things. My attorney joined in with him once I recall///about my needing home help... and insisting that I choose what day and time I wanted a maid. When Itried to explain ;how that isn't how it goes, for me or the cleaning service, they couldn't understand anything. At times my attorney and the mediator would take turns saying, What I think is... and if I tried to converse with their issue they said , "I'm talking." And yet they never asked me, or discussed it fully with me....

arrrggghhhhhh!!!! Talk about angst! I need to know if I can reneg, if I should, or go on. (In the past when Iw ent on instead, I have regretted it when my disability became worse and needed what I "went on" over.... rather than cause the stress that fighting would cause.) Did that make sense to you?

PTSD. I had full intention of doing this differently...

Did I write how the mediator said, " Why not go ahead and settle the whole case, and so what if that only gives you money to live 8 or 9 years, do that, enjoy those years and THEN you can jump out of the window." [PS I never threaten jumping out of a window! I will go off the roof! LOL}

[krzyk101]

((((SKY))))

This does indeed sound to be very overwhelming situation, and so many major decisions to make. I am really thinking of you and all of what this I could only imagine, to be such a series of emotions during all of this.

I understand the feeling of being told in one tone the decision being of myself and as you expressed the other tone of not being "allowed" to speak in the next tone, for me I often already feel as if they are not "hearing" me to begin with and being denied the opp. to be heard in their dissmising ways does not help things any.

I am thinking of you and I have 'heard' all of your frustrations in the thread and sincerly do hope that something good will come of all this and things will look up and turn in your favor as you deserve the respect and to be treated with respect. Please stay safe, and be good to yourself during all of this.

~~º~~ºº~~Caring thoughts~~ºº~~º~~

Chris

[kimmydawn]

sky, that's horrible

what did you decide about rescinding the contract? you had 72 hours correct (most states do)? what did you decide, sweetie?

let us know. we're thinking of you.

kd

[(JD)]

Tks all for your good thoughts.

Well, I was going to bounce it off the psychologist, and actually "warned" him of the idea in a voice message, so as not to catch him offguard with the idea in session today....

then he called in sick. I took it as a higher power's intention to deny me the motivation to cancel the contract....

sigh. odd thing, my physical therapist called in sick today too.

Anyway... more on the story... I called the attorney's office late today anyway, asking for something in writing saying that tomorrow's hearing was cancelled. (I was afraid they would hold it anyway and I would lose everything!) They told me the hearing was today. Well, then that it was cancelled. They sent me (faxed) a letter stating so.

sheesh. My document they last sent me was for the 5th! Also, the opposition's last offer was $200k and the last one I received from the attorney in writing was $100 k. (Doesn't matter, no where near enough to care for me.) But shows I'm not getting accurate information from my own attorney!

And... the opposition is up to the same games. They refused to authorize the dietician they promised to (she called me today to tell me.) And they have refused the wrist splints which they promised from earlier mediations (and have provided previously.) My dentist didn't call with arrangements for the beginning of the dental work, so I know they haven't received authorization either.

Why did I give up everything ... because OF stress, I know.. but to alleviate stress, when it just continues????? sigh.

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{Sky}}}}}}}}}
That stinks so bad, but it just sounds like their game is to keep taking more and more away as long as you keep not being satisfied and settling. Thanks for letting us know what is going on. I have been worried about you, and I'm glad that you are back.

[(JD)]

Thank you Rap. I hope you stay glad I'm back.