I answered a post on another forum wherein a person had attacked me.
"You shove this down our throats"--key words---I didn't realize it till about a half an hour later-cutting up sweet potatos for my dog's dinner-hands shaking-cut myself--

I had actually answered two attacks she'd made on me--I was diplomatic, even apologized, and agreed with her---
then i realized, afterwards--"shove down our throats"-claims to be a rape
victim-how could she use that expression? anybody?
On a PTSD forum--how could she use that expression?--or is she really lying, playing the victim...doesn't she know?

I have no answer, theodora. I do know you have always interacted with me with honor. Sorry this happened.

[pegasus]

Hugs ((((((((( theodora )))))))))))

Sorry this happened to you, we never know who we are really talking to. Take care of yourself.

[billieJ]

theodora ~ I'm so sorry this happened to you. We should all interact with grace and respect on this forum. We do not come here to be abused. billieJ

[NuckingFutz]

Yes, take care of yourself. Some of the boards out there are not properly monitored. A good way to go about joining an online support group is to watch the board for a while without interacting to see if it would benefit you. I am so sorry that this happened to you.

I never associated "shove down our throats" with rape. I can see why it would be, but the mental image I always got was force-feeding, as a parent forcing a child to eat vegetables or something. I never thought of the expression in that way.

So it's not implausible that a rape victim would use that expression. Doesn't excuse her rudeness to you, though, and I'm sorry it affected you badly. Get better soon, with your hand.

Hello, theodora. How is the cut doing?

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

I have no answer, theodora. I do know you have always interacted with me with honor. Sorry this happened.

I want to thank you for your kind words. It's so difficult sometimes because I have CPTSD, and have been abused before memory began. I don't know sometimes where a trigger might come from as I suppose it is stored in my subconcious. It was so difficult to believe once I realized that this girl was really being cruel and rude to me. I have alot of trouble believing that people are unkind. Even with all the abuse of my life, at the hands of those closest to me; I still like to, and do believe that all humans are basically good. It takes me awhile before I see that evil sarcasm and
cruel intent are in others.
I suppose it's why I isolate so much..."I have my books, and my poetry to protect me...I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain, I touch no one and no one touches me, I am a rock- I am an island..." Simon and Garfunkel--I do love them so much still...heartfelt thanks for your kindnesses towards me---you are a good person-theo

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

Hello, theodora. How is the cut doing?

Just a cut-deep, but I don't get all bent over stufflike that- thanks for your concern.

Originally Posted by LovebirdsFlying

I never associated "shove down our throats" with rape. I can see why it would be, but the mental image I always got was force-feeding, as a parent forcing a child to eat vegetables or something. I never thought of the expression in that way.

So it's not implausible that a rape victim would use that expression. Doesn't excuse her rudeness to you, though, and I'm sorry it affected you badly. Get better soon, with your hand.

You are too kind, I don't deserve it, hiding behind my nebulous posts,,and
making myself seem unapproachable. I have a history of abuse--and I am hypersensitive to the words of others--I will endeavor to be more real with you all here--you've no idea how your kind words touch me.

Originally Posted by NuckingFutz

Yes, take care of yourself. Some of the boards out there are not properly monitored. A good way to go about joining an online support group is to watch the board for a while without interacting to see if it would benefit you. I am so sorry that this happened to you.

You know it!!! I've been part of that forum for a while. It's a free for all.
no moderators, nothing but an Abuse form to file.
this young girl-29 and from manhattan-bored rich girl--she was stalking me for a long while. Don't comprehend cruelty amongst the vulnerable.

Good Brooklyn girl that I am, I began to stifle her, by laughing and singing songs when she stalked me and replied to my posts to others, welcoming them and sharing and trying to be supportive with them.
I reported Abuse 20 times siting violation of the Terms of service---
she was not even a member of that group! She really got upset when I did not fight back, and actually asked me if I'd done any of that lately,
and that really is what i like isn't it?---They finally deleted her disgusting posts, she may be banned, I don't know.
I feel alot better now. I use mindfulness, and meditation as aids to get past these things----thanks so very much for your advice! Be well--
and i adore your avatar-gonna pull your tail! lol theo

[Evening]

Hey theodora guess who this is? haha
I took your advice and came here, I don't plan to share anything about my PTSD here, I've received nothing but attacks for it, as you know. The other forum is ridiculous, it's just fight, fight, fight. I've got the biggest headache from crying after what just happened. I'm over that place. I do miss the decent members though.

Hey Evening! Glad to see you cut accross --i was so darn sick i just lay down and went to sleepp-no i haven't had the heart to look at that other place--i'm so revolted by all of it How do you like it here-its a much more well rum forum, and they don't encourage use of curse words-but i think you have had enough of that anyway, as have i much more civil here-glad to hear you are feeling better-i still feel like someone hit me with a sledgehammer--ugh--xxoxoxoxoxoxo-theo
Post: you have to write more posts-4 more that are approve by moderators before we can pm one another---but its so great-we can still be friends---i ain't agoin back anymore too sick from it all

[Evening]

I am hoping this forum is better, this is my third (and LAST) attempt at a PTSD forum. I am just not going to talk about myself I don't think, I can't share things without getting attacked so it's better to keep my PTSD to myself.
I don't mind the swearing (I do swear a lot when I'm mad!), just not attacking each other. And DEFINITELY not being told I am an abuser myself. That was too far, no matter how offended someone is. I think some other people left after that as well, I don't blame them.
I had such a headache and couldn't sleep last night after that, it was such a trigger for me, and it was DIRECT, you know, which is even more harsh.Not only that but I was getting PMs from men on there trying to have a crack. Bleh.
God I could just go on and on... I need to breath and move on...

Welcome Evening. So far I've found people pretty supportive around here. Sometimes my posts don't get answered as fast as I'd like, and I've ranted about it a couple of times, but that's because when I'm in crisis I need real-life help, not a website forum. And even after I've been really angry about that, people have still been supportive.