[BlastAuf]

I always thought it was just Borderline, but apparently they're typically co-morbid. On one hand, I'm glad I now know what exactly the problem is and how to address it with my therapist, but on the other hand I feel emotionally and mentally exhausted at the idea of facing this giant issue. We're starting EMDR next session and we're going to take it slow, she's stressed that, but part of me just wants to jump right in so we can knock this sucker out. I'm tired of feeling like this, it's too much sometimes. I just want to be a normal, stable adult. I know not everyone reacts to EMDR the same and PTSD/BPD is different for everybody, but is there any way to know how long before I'll start feeling better? If it makes any difference, I do make progress pretty quickly and work hard on my own.

[(JD)]

Originally Posted by BlastAuf

I always thought it was just Borderline, but apparently they're typically co-morbid. On one hand, I'm glad I now know what exactly the problem is and how to address it with my therapist, but on the other hand I feel emotionally and mentally exhausted at the idea of facing this giant issue. We're starting EMDR next session and we're going to take it slow, she's stressed that, but part of me just wants to jump right in so we can knock this sucker out. I'm tired of feeling like this, it's too much sometimes. I just want to be a normal, stable adult. I know not everyone reacts to EMDR the same and PTSD/BPD is different for everybody, but is there any way to know how long before I'll start feeling better? If it makes any difference, I do make progress pretty quickly and work hard on my own.

Yes, PTSD is a bear of a disorder. I wonder if the "borderline" label is accurate at all though.

I'm sure it does give some relief to have an absolute label, however, you really don't know 'exactly' what the problem is yet.. ugh. It's a multi-layer disorder imo.

EMDR does work quite well for many people. I'm glad your t is smart in this, knowing not to go too quickly. Often going more slowly results in faster healing (as you don't have to stop, retrace, clear up other deep issues you trudged up first, regrouping and re-establishing safety.)

I wish you well. It sounds like you're on the right path now.

[trixielou]

last time i saw my t head diagnosed me with ptsd also from abuse & certain triggers that cuz flashbax has anyone ever self medicated going thru ptsd whether prescribed or not if so were u honest with ur t & doc? i have a history of addiction but up until the past couple of months ive messed up not with hard stuff like i used to do but with meds my doc knows my history so he keeps a very tight reign on what i take no refills given & i have to go every month i finally got to where i was seein him every other month but i was honest with him so now back to every month im afraid cuz i have an appt in a couple of days & if he asks i wont lie cuz i have a med in my system im not supposed to have & if he urine tests me does it just show up as benzos or do they test for different benzos? i have to take what i now have so i wont go thru withdrawals i dunno just had to get this off my chest any replies would be appreciated & believe me i know the self med & whether or not he will test or whatever isnt the root of the problem just afraid plz help

[E1234567]

You sound pretty enthusiastic and optimistic - and one great thing about PTSD is that it can be gotten over fairly quickly (not always - so those struggling with it a long time don't think that I'm being dismissive - I've had it for decades myself).

PTSD is more like a brain injury than an actual disease, but yeah, an injury can mean anything from "like a broken arm" to "like a spinal cord compression" - so just because there are some of us who have been stuck long term does not mean that you might not be over it in 3 months with EMDR.

Especially since, if I understand you correctly, you were already in treatment for Borderline, which is also curable, you might be just fine in 3 months.

[trixielou]

what is EMDR? what makes the brain respond to stuff when triggers happen? my dad got irritated with the dog this morning & just motioned like he was kickin her & for one thing my husband used to abuse her me anyone except his own size & age coward but anyways this just set something off with abuse i used to see hear & physically feel so glad i see my t in a couple of days i could use a whole week session with him