[peanutbutterisdandy]

I have been feeling depressed and anxious for the past eleven years (I am now 20). I have been getting migraines from stress since I was nine.The test on this website gave me a really high rating for PTSD. I have tried to reach out to my friends about how I feel every day, but none of the are therapists, I couldn't seem to find help. This discussion board is very new to me, I'm just trying to find ways to make myself feel better. I feel the longing for telling my whole life story to someone and having them fix me peice by piece... I know it doesn't work that way, but maybe this talking would help me. I have never seen a therapist for my problems, and I don't have the money for therapy. I am trying to get down to my county hospital, but between school and taking care of my mother's house, I don't have time to stand in line for two days. I'm writing anything I can think of that people can relate to or respond to. I'm just trying to reach out to others who most likely understand how to help me. Leave a message if you want, I would love to just talk.

[Can't Stop Crying]

I have PTSD too. It's a painful struggle to battle the past traumas. Someone told me the only way out is through (by telling my story). That is NOT what I wanted to hear, but there is power in having a voice. I'm still trying to find mine, little bits at a time.
If you can't find someone to talk to right now, write it down, that might give you some time to arrange for additional real life support. Do whatever you need to do to get it out. Keeping it inside makes it grow stronger. I hope this helps...keep posting

[scribbling2much]

Your feelings are so important, and it's strange how telling the story to the right kind of listener can help. I think back to how trauma impacted my life, by over the top reactions, sitting on my living room floor with about 20 door locks I had bought over a year period, trying to keep not only the trauma memory out, but even the people that I cared about out. I sat there trying to piece the various parts of the locks together to try to find enough parts for one with a matching key, so I didn't have to go out and spend another $40. I sat there realizing how useless and nuts it all was, because what was wrong was happening inside of me. The normal everyday world, for me was filled with shadows, and terrors. Things are not like that now for me, there is hope with the right kind of help.

[Typo]

If you are in school could you see about the mental health services on your campus? I understand what you are going through, I also have PTSD and it is a real struggle sometimes and it can be frustrating when people around us can't understand. Talking helps a lot, and I hope you continue to share and talk here in your journey to healing. Feel free to pm me anytime, I can be a bit slow to respond at times due to my crazy scheudle but I always respond. Best wishes to you peanutbutterisdandy.

[unico]

I have PTSD, too, due to my childhood environment (and worsened by bad relationships in my young adult years). I hope that opening up helps you. It has helped me quite a bit. If you want to talk, just message me I wish you the best!

[PTSDlovemycats]

I also have PTSD and am sorry that you have experienced what you have, Feel free to keep sharing on here if it makes you feel better. I am listening.