[I had no idea]

I had been doing well until...Last week, after a rough conversation with my husband, I fell apart the next day, & became so upset I got a migraine and was unable to care for my children and I had no one to turn to and no one was around to come help me. (No family around.) I was lost, felt abandoned, and my kids were running around the house wondering what to do with me. My husband said he couldn't come help, so I ended up calling 911. I was at a very low point. I had seen my therapist that morning and I was not doing well, but she just let me go with no real direction. My husband ended up showing up and I calmed down & we talked about things & he helped me out for the rest of the day. My mom flew here 2 days later to give me a hand. The next week I went to see my therapist & I was completely embarrased that I had called 911. I had had a week to talk through it w/ my hubby though and I was doing OK. When I went to my therapist she took the tough loving approach & told me that I can't be calling the cops to babysit my children & that I nearly ended up in a psych unit and my kids in foster care. She said that I had to have known that would be the result and I have to learn to pick up the pieces and not turn to my husband for help. She kept going on about how I needed to find new friends and move on from PTSD and to learn how to use resources to find new things for me to do. I don't know why she thinks my friends are bad or that I don't have things to do. Sure, I'm always scared of what other people are going to do to me & always have to watch my surroundings, etc., but I still get out for my kids' sake. It was as if she just blew and told me to start putting some effort into my life and leave my husband alone so I won't cause him to lose his job. I cried all the while she was speaking to me and cried as a left for about another hour. I am fragile and trying my best to return to a normal life, but I still have this disease and I cannot just make it go away. I feel as though my therapist was calling me lazy, crazy & as if I had given up. PTSD is consuming my life and I battle it each day and try to keep positive & find fun things to do. I have been working so hard to get better & she scared me all over again and made my trust issues worse. I don't know if I can trust her anymore. I've had her for about a year. Should I stay or should I go or how can I fix what happened this week?

[msvickyrn]

Hi, You are not alone. I have been seeing a therapist since 2008. I was told that I was self sabotoging because I was not seeking employment. I remain confused and frustrated when unable to complete a task and overwhelmed with any additional pressure to leave my house when I am feeling unsafe and distrust. I have been a mental health and forensic nurse 23 years. I never thought that PTSD would have such an impact on my day to day functioning. Having kids and a husband is difficult when they do not understand and explaining your thoughts and feelings is so difficult. You feel isolated and alone. You cannot give up because your kids need you to feel safe and secure. Even when you do not feel it within. Therapists are supposed to encourage and support you. Many times I too have felt insecure and frustrated when I want to heal and get better. Reaching out to others is important. You need your family to keep you grounded. Believe it your family is what is keeping you going. You are not alone. It helps to step outside or change your environment when you feel out of control and afraid. Breath and regroup. You can trust your family even when you think you are alone. I can relate and am here for you also.

[Iamsupportforyou]

I have had a bro that has seen a therapast when I was little I had a bro that is now like 16 but he was about 10 then and I remember showing the therapast a video on my Mom's cell phone of him hurting me and we were talking about him being mean to me. My teachers always got worried about that when I was back in elementary. So I now my lil bro sees a theripast cus he can't concentrate so yeah. I think that's the most I can relate to thisabout me.

[WePow]

sending you big hugs! Maybe your T was afraid you would end uo in even deeper trouble if you dont have the daily skills you need. Sadly I think she went about the session in thewrong way. I sense she may have been rightfully more upset with herself for not seeing how much you were in trouble in session before. That was HER job to see how badly you were doing that day. Let her know how her response sounded to you. She needs to know. And you deserve to be treated and not harmed further.

[notreal78]

This is bs. Don't let anyone make you feel this way! She is suppose to help you. You are human and she is too....people who talk this way to others are ignorant humans. YOU are strong and capable of anything. YOU ARE the SURVIVOR! You survived your past, this is the easy part! Stay strong, be happy, surround yourself with good natured events and happy places and people. I personally love the beach ALL year long. Keep strong! I have faith in you!

[likewater]

Dear Ihadnoidea,

You did the exact right thing, and if more parents did what you did and called 911 when they where overwhelmed, there would be millions of less abused kids and kids injured in accidents out there. Now, for next time check for other resources. In my city, there is a number you can call and you can get an emergency babysitter and it's for a crisis like what happened to you. I can find it and give it
to you, and then they can see if there is something in your area.

[likewater]

Ok ihadnoidea. The local number where i live to get respite babysitter for crisis is pikes peak family connections: 719-634-5439, but
i'm thinking if you call them, they may be able to refer you to help in your area. If not, at least you can tell your T or yourself , what you did is actually not only condoned but recommended by an entire professional organization of family therapists and professionals!