This is hopeless....

My therapist has a hard time to believe me. He assumes that i have anxiety and not PTSD ....(or dissociative which he gave me earlier)

He said: "If you know for sure those events happened - this is PTSD but if you don`t have a proof that it happened then its anxiety."

I feel again alone with this. I didn`t really expect anyone to believe this. I am sorry i trusted him with the secret information inside the many SO many flash backs i have been investigating. If not this we were just keeping up going with the P.E sessions.

For a few minutes i could talk, he asked questions. I could cry...He was there with me. But after that, as he said that he thought it didn`t happen and that i had anxiety - i felt how the burden is thrown back on me. How i came kicked back inside myself. Can trust no one. Can rely on no one.I felt again humiliated and TRAPPED and the need to RUN.

This really sucks. Even if i told you...you would not believe me. I will never heal from this. Never thought that it exist. Is that fair?

Ladymacbeth
The thing is, PTSD is an anxiety disorder. so either way, you are suffering from anxiety so treatment is the same whether he believes you or not. If you cant work with him, find a doctor who will believe you.

Ladymacbeth,
I find it hard to believe that someone could have flashbacks, real flashbacks of something that never happened. Every flashback I have ever had has been very real about actual memories.

Maybe these flashbacks are of things that you have chose to forget somehow because you couldn't handle them.

If you don't feel trust with your therapist you need to find a different therapist.
With PTSD, it is very important to trust the person who is trying to provide therapy, yes it is an anxiety disorder but I personally believe it comes from some kind of tramatic event, even a series of them.

Just my opinion,
Open Eyes

(((ladymacbeth)))

From all people i prefer HIM - i tried to go away before and though t of finding someone else and came back. I do not blame him for not believing only for myself telling the additional parts...i could have shut my mouth about that.

But you are right - it is and anxiety disorder and he did a good work with ,me before, with DBT. He helped me to practically build my life, and the realtionship we created - making peace after i went, angry ...

He also said that this therapy will help in both cases.....If it happened and if it really didn`t. But i felt the need to rant over this because the experience was hard...No one would believe me. I do not need to expect it.60% of the work i have done with myself, But he is the starting shot....

So anyways.....

Thank you a lot for encouragement.... and understanding...

Sometimes the most difficult part oftrauma is being able to know the truth ourselves.
When I was doing my trauma work last year, I was always doubting my own truth.
My T said that my pain was very real, and who would bring themselves that much pain by thinking thing up. He taught me HOW to trust MY body and MY flashbacks.

A part of trauma is the denial stage! I dont think your T is a trauma expert from the way it sounds. Mine is. So I say you should go with your body and feelings. In order to survive great pain, the mind will try to tell itself the event never happened.

big hugs to you!

This is very interesting....he actually went on with the trauma work. Believing me or not...

THIS i call THERAPIST!!!