[Rhapsody]

Just sharing.......

I was at home and decided to take a nap, while I was sleep I heard my husband come home from work and then I feel back a sleep.... my husband came into the bedroom to get his paintball gun (to work on it) and it slightly disturbed me for I could hear him in the room - but I started to fall back asleep...

Upon awaking the next time I had a weird and freighting feeling that someone was in the room with me and I wondered if it was my husband again, but it was not - and yet I honestly could feel someone on my blanket hovering over me (I could feel the pressure of their body up against my leg) and I was scared.... I felt as though his arm was going to come under the sheets and I could not move.
FEAR was every where's.... it took me a while until I could move and just look out from the blanket covering my head.... no was there and yet I felt the reality of what had just happened.

NOW - I wonder at what time in my life this event was from.... which one of my 4 abusers was it?

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Larry_Hoover]

May I suggest a very normal human experience as the explanation?

What you describe is a very typical example of what is called a hypnogogic illusion. It is caused by an unusual blending of sleep and awake brain states. You straddled the line, for a moment, and your awake brain didn't understand.

Here's a link:
http://watarts.uwaterloo.ca/~acheyne/S_P2.html

Best,
Lar

[hillbunnyb]

Just for another possibility: I have had pets who recently crossed over be in ther usual place on my bed for a while till they move on........ i can feel their weight, even hear their purrrr, but open eyes see nothing......

[Rhapsody]

Thanks - Larry.... while I know without a doubt that no one other than my husband was in my bedroom at that moment and while I am aware that the realm between sleep and waking can and does cause some events like the one I had.... I still just needed to share as to release the strange feeling I was having inside of me, for I could without a doubt place that feeling to my past sexual abuse.... the feeling was all to real to me the child and the adult.

Oh Hillbunny.... how I wish I had a cat (can't hubby allergic) but if I did then I could say the cat was here.... I have 4 dogs and they are not allowed on the furniture, nor could their little short legs jump high enough to get on my bed (and) well if the pitbull got up there I would feel her.... but she never does, not allowed.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Guess I am just needing to share for I have been having such a hard time emotionally lately and now the return of some PTSD.... I am feeling very withdrawal from my family and the world again.

[Sabrina]

I suffer from night terrors and what you describe is something I often feel. My mind is telling me that I am in danger and that I should wake up but I can't seem to. It is a very frightening and repressing feeling. Usually, I wake up screaming.

I am intrigued at what Larry posted and will have a look at the link.

Sending you safe hugs!

[Rhapsody]

Yeah I have the night terrors a lot too.... my husband usually ends up waking me after he hears me calling out for him or screaming - he holds me while I go back to sleep.

But with this particular event I can say that was half asleep and half awake when it started, but then I was fully awake for 5 minutes before I could even get the courage to look out from under neath my covers..... more like PTSD to me.
Then I went back to sleep for another hour after I saw that all was well and that there was no immediate danger.



LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Sabrina]

Larry, the link was very interesting and sounds exactly like what I go through. So ... after all this time of thinking it was part of night terrors, it may well be something seemingly "normal".

Rhapsody, did you read the article?

[Rhapsody]

YES.... I read the article.... still thinking it thru, for there are other factors to my part.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -