[cusack10]

hi,i'm in china.i didn't get some valuable response in china psych site on this post,so i try here,hope i translate it well.

really looking to go outside to meet new people,find some support,but i'm afraid of being harmed.
i viewed some posts concerning introverted people,which is saying that you need to practice,you'll change after you work.but i don't have store,bottom,castle sort of build-ups,so i'm worrying that i would fall up when i meet bad.instructions.
what occasion suit this type of me?

[cusack10]

accompanied or reasoned up.nobody get what i am saying?gees.

[cusack10]

store,or bottom,or castle sort of build-up.or ground.

[cusack10]

nobody gets what i am saying.so cruel the world.i'm wrong born.wa..en..en..waa...

[Open Eyes]

((((cusack))))),

I think what you mean is that you don't have a good foundation to work with. That is something that takes time to work on and should be done with a good therapist. It is not unusal for many people to struggle because they lacked the proper nurturing and environment that helped them build a good foundation to tackle life and interacting with others. Just know that most people struggle with self esteem issues, you are truely not alone in feeling the way you feel. And it takes time to learn how to understand this and work on yourself, yes, and find your way to slowly interacting and simply learning from any mistakes you make. That is what we all do in our lives, we make our efforts and learn from the situations that do not provide us with postitive results.

((((Hugs)))))
Open Eyes

[cusack10]

ohh,open eyes,i am grateful to you for your reply!
i am to calm down and will make a reply later.thank you.

[cusack10]

sure hard.sure pain.
Agony.
Anguish.

[carrie_ann]

((((cusack))))

[cusack10]

maybe it is useless to tell more,i vent.and been a string of strikes recently.
mom is not on my side when involving outsiders,she's on their side against me.maybe because i am a mental patient,which makes her lose face.
plus the current family i am in is not original one,a combination of my mom and an elder.he,i think,don't tie to my mom emotionally much,he just need a care on living.so he is also an outsider.they're all snobbish,and i am weak,weak draws bully,they're just material,i am still in build,so i am spiritual.so finding faults on me,it's the same with his visiting adult kids.and mom isn't with me.
let alone the outsiders outside the family.
abandoned by the family and outside it.
i really try to be good,try to nice,not bothering any one,still bad results.
i take meds everyday,i am a real patient,but no one treat me as one.
i know i don't have positive symptoms,just pesonality problems,weak dealing socially.couldn't file in any item in people's mind.
don't know what i'm saying.

[Open Eyes]

((((cusack10)))),

I am sorry that you are within a group of people that fail to be supportive of you. It sounds to me like they are ignorant and base their judgements on their ignorance. You say you are mentally ill in some way? Well, I would not be surprised it your mental health has something to do with a lack of proper nurturing. We all have some kind of challenge as no human being is perfect. But, though we all have some kind of challenge it should not stop us from discovering ourself worth in spite of our difficulties. The history of human beings is full of those who were great influences on who we all are today, and all of these greats had SOME KIND of PSYCHOLOGICAL CHALLENGE. And many of these greats left their family environments to set out on their own to discover their own self worth which included interacting with other human being on thier own.

As a human being, you have this same right to find your own identity and self worth in YOUR LIFE. If that means walking away from the group of people you call family to do so, as long as you CAN safely do so, then you have a right to do so. It is perfectly normal for you to have a desire to want to interact with other people and learn how to live your life and learn from others and actually have a role in making life decisions for yourself. You do need to make sure that you continue to seek help for your disorder that you have listed here. There are people with this disorder that do thrive.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[cusack10]

(((((open eyes)))))
thank you.

[cusack10]

it's just that the so called foundation is built on the base of truth or reason,you can't build it in conflicts,so what occassion does truth linger?

[cusack10]

will you be the light for me one more time?

[cusack10]

do you read me,open eyes?

[Open Eyes]

(((cusack)))),
I am sorry I didn't respond right away, I had a difficult week myself this week and didn't notice your request.

I don't know very much about schizophrenia, but I have met people who manage to work around it. With any disorder, often family and relatives can be negetive because they may not understand. I know that it is important that you try to find a good therapist that can work with you and help you learn how to live around the disorder.

I personally believe that self awareness is the first step towards learning how to work around a disorder. Understanding how it effects us and why is the first step and then we can, with the right help learn to help ourselves better.

(((Hugs)))

Open Eyes

[cusack10]

refresh it.i think the foundation you mentioned is built with reason or truth,you can't build it with confrontations or conflicts,so in what occasion does reason take a relatively firmer stand?

[cusack10]

oh,same time posting.
sorry to hear you've had a tough time.you take care of yourself.
we'll meet another time.sure.

[Open Eyes]

((((cusack)))),

I have to be honest, my own foundation was shaky too. I suffered some CSA and the atmosphere around me consisted of a lot of arguing of my parents about my brother who was a challenge.

It has and still is taking me time to pull apart my past and see the truths and abuse and confusion and how I was affected in ways I had not realized. I have been in therapy working it all out. I have PTSD and it has been a challenge for me. But I am learning about it and working at it slowly. And my family doesn't understand WHAT PTSD means as well.

The healing process I am going through has to do with me and working with a therapist to sort my foundation out, to see the truths. If we are involved with family that doesn't understand/support us, it is important to find other sources where we DO get support. I have found a good therapist and have been slowly working on MY foundation problems. I have been learning a lot and am still working on it. It really is not something I can do all alone.

I am not going to be around this weekend so I cant add more right now.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[cusack10]

Originally Posted by cusack10

refresh it.i think the foundation you mentioned is built with reason or truth,you can't build it with confrontations or conflicts,so in what occasion does reason take a relatively firmer stand?

where do i stand.?

[cusack10]

seems i am advancing,too ahead of the times.

[Open Eyes]

Hi cusak,
The questions you are asking should be presented to a therapist. Remember we are not therapists here. I for one have very little knowledge about schizophrenia so I can't truely give you the big answers you are looking for. Maybe ask some questions in that forum where there may be others that are addressing your same questions and have found answers through therapy?

((((Hugs))))
Open Eyes