[shezbut]

While yesterday started out so happy for me, with my pDoc validating my decision to dissociate completely from my family, the day ended rather poorly.

My daughters went to California for 2 1/2 weeks this morning, to spend time with my parents, aunt, cousin/s (and hopefully not my brother as well). This pushed me into depression hard and deeply.

Last night was filled with horrifying nightmares. I woke screaming a few times, with memories of me finally escaping my abusive and indifferent family. Jumping out of cars and onto the streets. Running. {My 2 daughters and my ex-husband living many miles away & not having much interest in me at all.} I was terrified and depressed at each waking ~ Horrible!!

[Open Eyes]

Well ofcourse you would have bad feelings about your daughters visiting your disfunctional family. And you are not there?

Although Shezbut, you may be surprised that when they come home they may be the ones that validate you by saying something like, wow, your parents are strange mom.

So ease up, your daughters didn't grow up around them right? So they may see them realistically, not like you who was a part of that.

So take some deep breaths and I think that your daughters have more sense than you think

((hugs))
Open Eyes

[Fuzzybear]

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