[bearhugs]

Hi all,
Sorry i have been away for a while. I just dont wanna be outside and I dont wanna be inside. I just wanna isolate myself more and more, and dont really wanna be around people these days . I am not sure if this had to do with my DID or if it is both my DID and my PTSD. SOmething is up and I dont really know what it is. I am so disorganinsed and such a mess in my head. Its too hard to think or focus on anything. I have been really sick for the last two weeks with Pnumonia and my doctor wont do a thing about it. Its not going away with over the counter stuff, and I tell you my doctor is famous for not writing a perscription when you know you really need it.
I am not doing so hot, and have no one around me that i can reallly talk to that understands. I have no friends really and thats really hard for me. Other people on this site seem to have people on the outside that they can trust and talk to, and that is part of what makes me feel kind of out of place in this world in genral. Gee this sure makes me sound like a real looser doen't it.
I am at a stage where I just wanna hide from the world forever. I dont know all i know is that something is up and I cannot figure it out. I am so lost, so alone, and so out of it.
I gotta go, sorry for the post I'm just not up to doing anything lately. I just in an Ugggggh mode. Sorry if that dont make any sense.

[silver_queen]

Hi bearhugs,

it is good to vent! And anything you feel isn't wrong, even if it's not necessarily true. Can you see another dr and get better meds? It sounds like your dr is most unusual, prescribing too few meds rather than the usual too many!

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Many ppl do have other ppl they can talk to, even if it's just a therapist, but I'm sure many don't have any others to talk to, or ppl they want to confide in anyway. I'm one of them I feel I only have online to talk about the issues that concern me. It can be an isolating experience, especially since when relying on online support the people you trust aren't always online, or misunderstand, etc.

Maybe retreating from the world (if possible) for a few days would work, or perhaps a lot of self-care - treating yourself in whatever way you can. Maybe in a few days things will become clearer to you, and easier.

[sorrel]

I'm here and I hear you and I understand.

I also have only my therapist and online folks to confide in.

physical illness tends to intensify vulnerable feelings...

as silver queen says, try and be good to you.

[Larry_Hoover]

I don't understand.....pneumonia is a serious problem. Is it possible your breathing difficulties aren't pneumonia? If you have a lung infection, you require treatment and monitoring. If you believe you are ill, and your doctor is not treating you with the care you believe is warranted, then you need to go to another doctor. An emergency room, even. A BearHug® to Bearhugs.....

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Lar

[bearhugs]

Larry i belive that the world of doctors is hard to understand. Doctors on my type of insurance dont have much of a heart reallly. I will take your advice and see if i can find another doctor and see what happens. Bearhugs

[bearhugs]

Hi silver queen well i took a bit of break form the world and tried treating myself as you said, but it didint' work. I am still trying to see what does work though. I am glad that you are a member here. I know w hat you mean that relying on people online to write about certain issues can be an isolating and lonely expierience.
I hope that you are well Take good care, and PM me any time.

[bearhugs]

Sorrel I am glad you understand, people in the outside world dont understand me, but i am glad that you and others on this site do understand me. bearhugs.