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itīs difficult for me to have a real overview over my biographie. I feel like itīs so overwhelming and confusing, itīs easier to just not think about it at all and even if i try,i canīt really include all of it emotionally. But that makes me feel pretty detached, like i donīt know how i got here and not sure who i really am without a story.
Does anyone feel the same? How do you deal with it? I tried looking at pictures from my life trying to connect with me then but as I get older in the pictures, it is like it is too not-understandable, I canīt really believe it is me who it all happened to, itīs overwhelming... :/ |
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You know Alishia, I feel the same way. I have pictures of myself around, in my wedding gown and at different points of my life as well. When I look at the pictures I begin to think about all the things I didn't understand and the bad things I went through. I see a pretty young woman actually, but I didn't really see it at the time tbh. And I feel sad that I was often so nieve.
Working through PTSD is definitely a challenge, and people who have PTSD do begin to recognize what they "missed" because of some of the upsetting things they lived through. My therapist has told me that I am in the healing stage of PTSD where I will be "mourning" the things that were "taken" from me because of abusive people in my life. And he is sooo right, because I do have times where I cry because I see things that are sad in my past. This stage for me is all about "accepting" and "coming to terms with it". It sure hasn't been easy for me. I have to realize that I really cannot go back, that I am at a point in my life that I am learning what it all meant and how it affected me as a person. And I have to learn how to live in the "now" inspite of my past. However, "most" people do have "regrets" when they are older, have more life experience and look back at their pictures of when they were younger. That famous statement is "If I knew then what I know now, I would have lived my life differently" is said a lot because it is true. Well, Alisha, you have to get to a point where you "accept" healing and understand that when you look back on your past, what you are really doing now with a therapist, is you are seeing how that affected you in ways you didn't realize. And then you are going to learn to accept and then make some "positive" changes "inspite" of your personal history. My therapist told me that one of the biggest challenges that people who struggle with PTSD have is taking that "leap" to "self empowerment" inspite of their past. However, once you examine your personal history and see how it affected you, and what you have learned from that, you actually can get to a point where you do takes steps to self empowerment again. You will realize that even though you had challenges that were unfair, you still managed to keep going and living your life, often you may not have had the right skills to know how to face a lot of challenges, but in reality, that is the way it is for many people. The truth is that you "can" learn how to "slowly" not only make gains, but make better decisions and slowly get yourself moving forward again. Therapy is also about developing new skills to help you do that as well. So, you are not alone in feeling this way, and yes it is sad and hard to come to terms with. But you "can" come to terms with it and slowly go forward too. (((Hugs)))) Open Eyes |
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