[LilMercy]

It doesnt seem to matter who I talk too, It either becomes about them or they make me feel horrible for thinking/feeling what I do...Im so tired of hearing how "im just emotional today" "must be pms" "Go have sex you'll feel better" NO NO NO! Ugh Im really hating my life and I feel like such a burden to people lately...I dont even know how to ask for some space without crying my eyes out feeling guilty and saying sorry.........I'm such a pushover...one day i'll work up the nerve....

[Open Eyes]

((LilMercy)),

I have uttered that many times myself. It is a waste of time to expect people who don't understand PTSD to give you the kind of understanding and replys you need to hear. I have had alot of experience myself with having family and friends just not understand how I struggle and they have actually been cruel to me.

You have to be very "patient" with yourself while you are working through this in therapy. It takes time to slowly understand "why" certain things bother you and work through it until you have developed a sense of peace in your mind.

I do hope your fiance can meet with your therapist to learn how to support you as you work through it. The more support you get the easier it will be for you. I am glad you found PC so you can come and vent and get validated.

Keep being patient, practice developing ways to distract your mind so you can calm down and get more control over the anxiety etc.

We are here and listening.

(((Gentle Warm and Caring Hugs))))
Open Eyes

[LilMercy]

((Open Eyes))

I always look forward to your replies as you seem to "get me" I had a rough spot last night but seem to have worked through it, Many many tears shed but worth it I believe Thanks soo much for all your caring words and advice

@lilmercy,

thank yu for telling your story here. i've found this to be a safe place. i am a trauma survivor and others feel confused when i am triggered and have difficulties; like difficulty breathing and thinking or wanting to run away. talk to someone of whom they have gained your trust. please accept help. you are never alone.

brook

[Open Eyes]

((LilMercy))),

It took me a while to learn how to "self sooth" so I could manage better. With PTSD it is easy to get caught up in too much to think about all at once. I struggled with that alot and it was too hard to explain it to others.

I understand, yes, PTSD can be very tiring, but after a while you can learn how to slow down and give yourself permission to let go and let your mind float and realize how it brings relief. It took me a while to figure that out and that I "can" learn to do it. As a matter of fact I was talking about that with my T today. He confirmed everything I have said, even that it takes time but he has helped many patients learn this and really "gain" on the PTSD.

So, be patient, you will get there. Remember, if you need to talk though, you can always just come here and write your thoughts out. There are good caring and understanding members in the forum that are "good listeners" and know the struggle.

((((Hugs))))