Feels like I'm reliving a very bad time in my life...

Hi there, I don't even like to talk about it so I won't be specific, but somethign's been in the news recently that reminded me of what I went through last early fall. I ended up with a nervous breakdown...I mean, I was really bad. It embarasesses me to even think about it. It wasn't "me" at all, and I was terrified...for weeks, even, before it happened. I get sick just thinking about it. It was definietly anxiety based.

But this week I'm having those same kidns of thoughts...fear...when I sleep, I often feel half asleep and half awake with...dreadful imaginings of things I think are happening...people lurking. I tell myself it isn't real but I'm terrified.

Pretty sure it's PTSD but I just want some advice...on how to handle it. I don't want to "talk to anyone about it"..I was treated so, so, so horribly the last time...they made me feel so...small and...stupid.

I'm not in a position to avoid the news, as it were, so does anyone have any coping mechanisms I could try? Thanks.

Hi! U have to talk to someone about it. Also its best to seek proffessional help because they can prescribe meds to help. It can be controlled on your own; but I recently was overwhelmed with a lot and I couldnt help my feelings. Please get help before it becomes out of control.

Mama, I know this runs counter to what I should do, but I won't go back to talk to anyone. they just stigmatize me and think I'm like this ALL the time when I'm not. The meds are a joke. I have a job to do and can't do them zombied out...and to be honest, most of the doctors in my town don't have experience working with employed clients. But thanks for caring.

I have been where you are. I could talk about it to no one--until I reached the point of being prepared to kill myself rather than re-experience the terror in a similar situation. I found a therapist who practiced EMDR. It did the trick---and quickly. I can't tell you the relief I feel now.

Yes, I had to relive it, but "safety nets" were put in place with the help of the therapist before we began. It really does work. Please consider finding someone!

I'll keep it in mind, thank you. Glad it worked out for you.

Sorry to hear you were treated so bad in the past. I felt the same at one point after 3 different Ts told me I was gonna just have to learn to live with it. After almost all hope was gone I found a lady who did EMDR on Houston that has truly saved my life. Things still trigger me to this day but seeing her helps me, but I understand if you don't want to go through that Again. My t taught me to live in the moment and not the past. Close your eyes and feel what's bothering you like a chest pain or tightness concentrate on that and then take deep breathes and you can wiggle your toes or move both hands while doing this to. Always helps me if you wanna try but you should really find a good T