overly emotional over nothing.

im pretty mad at myself for not being able to function over the smallest thing ever but it really ruined my day. I spend my entire night waiting to get home just to throw this frozen crumb apple pie in the oven. its the only thing running through my mind all night and even the past couple days everytime i looked into the freezer, just thinking , cant wait to make that pie. I ****ing open the pie and spread the 2 inches of thick dutch pie crumbs all over the frozen apple. i take my time spreading the chunks so everyone gets an equal piece. i open the ****ing oven and am just about to throw it in there when my older brother, who really means well, shoves his finger in the middle as a joke, not realizing its frozen, and i drop it. he was pushing it down directly out of my hands and it was already heavy. the crumbs fly ****ing everywhere and im left with a ****ing cookie tin full of frozen artificial apples and my favorite, if not only loveable part of the entire pie, is all over my feet. ugh. so i have two strangers in another room who id already promised pie and i just have to throw in a tin of apples and hope it tastes good anyway. so pissed i wanna cry so i just walk in my room, lay there clenching my jaw trying to hold back the wave of uncontrollable emotion and anticipation of a nasty pie i have to awkwardly serve without blame because im already walking on eggshells in this house. i end up on the computer typing my
problems" to strangers. all i ****ing wanted was this pie man.... why cant this one thing work out. just some pie. the worst part is i can just move on and stop stressing about it but my mind wont let me stop thinking about the outcome thats awaiting. pulling out a crustless tin of goo! ugh.

Oh hun, I can so relate...I am sorry that you are feeling this bad. It's a horrible feeling when having looked forward to something, and have people watching your discomfort.

If you can, try to focus on the funny side as well..maybe your guests will be able to laugh too once they see that you do. I am always being a clutz and the only way I deal with it is to laugh at myself.....it breaks the moment up. And know this, you can and do function......you are dealing with this the best way you know how.

Unfuntionablytired sorry that you were not able to get the pie baked and to eat the yumminess of it all, and that your brother played a joke and it turned out very badly and that the guests that you had were effected with missing out on the pie.

It is frustrating when things we want, turn out for the worse, but it is a part of life and the best thing is to try to learn from it all.

You mention you are walking on egg shells, which that has to be over bearing within it self; and then things not turning out right to just add on top.

Can you break down your post here and pin point- what really ticks you off with it all? Or even maybe, other things..

That is one thing that I do when I am in the state of I just can't get it out of my head-- break down what happened, acknowledge what I feel, and in some cases (for me that is) relate to what it reminds me of if anything, (I do this with anger a lot-- and boundary issues if they happen),... It at times can help me put into perceptive, "am I flipping out too far with this, or am I not?"
Some times small things can get under my skin, but in away those aren't really the issue either (if maybe you catch my drift with that or not?).

Some Times with me at least, when I focus and sort of relay on "one thing" to turn out perfectly... I some times miss some other great things that are going on too.... Some times it is best not to have the "best part of your day" just focused on one thing.. if that makes sense.

I hope you well, and sorry for the babble from a stranger

So sorry this happened to you, I know how it feels.

I prepared a dinner once for some girls I knew. Me being the man, made homemade Sweet and sour pork from scratch. I summoned every one for dinner. I took the dinner out of the oven and immediatly dropped it on the floor. So all we had for dinner was rice. They laughed and joked about it, but I was devested and embarressed...but at least they enjoyed their rice.

Greg

It's true, if you are already stressed out, even little things get to you, semi-little things like a brother dumping your pie because he was being a jerk get to you more. Sorry this happened. Just remember, you too Greg, it's the company, not the food, that counts. People understand. We are harder on ourselves than anyone else.

I've been like that for about two weeks now.

Just one tiny little thing a day will send me nearly (or does send me) into a crying fit. It's reallllly hard as a teacher, and I've currently got a houseguest.

That is the kind of thing that I would completely flip out over.

I get embarrassed for being so reactive. It's partly a cumulative reaction to lots of stresses, and partly my inexperience with dealing with emotions at all. I get overwhelmed and reactive quickly.

I hope you know you are NOT alone. I react the same way to frustration and disappointment.