[grandma21964]

Well it got the best of me. Sigh I really thought it had left. Nope its still hanging around like a bad case of chicken pox. Ugh!

Ended up in the crisis center twice and then 51/50 myself do to the orders of my self and the psychologist. I totally believe in the power of spiritual prayer, and I know there are answers to many perplexing questions. But PTSD is kicking by you know what.

It has been now, lets see, um 12 years since my son passed and mom, and I'm okay with it now. Why does stress and life just overwhelm me? Its so annoying it depresses me even more and I cry like a baby. Don't get me wrong crying is essential to healing it just makes me angry.

Now on abilify, zoloft and anxiety meds as needed. I hoping that my counseling will be the power that creates peace in me and my brain that turns like a hamster in a cage.

I haven't been on here in weeks since I broke down and went in hospital. It feels good to talk with others dealing with the same stuff. Hugs to all who read this, cause we need it.
Grandma

[kaliope]

ptsd is really difficult. I thought I had it licked and I changed therapist to one who specialized in trauma and it turns out my overwhelming anxiety and agoraphobia is related to the ptsd and it was all just there waitng for me. I had just been ignoring it all this time. now I have all these traumatic memories coming up on me. its like, give me a break. I hope things get better for you and you don't have to struggle so much. take care

[grandma21964]

Originally Posted by kaliope

ptsd is really difficult. I thought I had it licked and I changed therapist to one who specialized in trauma and it turns out my overwhelming anxiety and agoraphobia is related to the ptsd and it was all just there waitng for me. I had just been ignoring it all this time. now I have all these traumatic memories coming up on me. its like, give me a break. I hope things get better for you and you don't have to struggle so much. take care

Kaliope, thank you for the understanding and letting me know your going through some similar things too. At times I feel alone and think my some just don't understand, even my hubby. Its has been hard explaining it. My brother try to understand, I told him I'm not grieving over my son, however it is like my brain cannot cope with stress and I get very anxious and depressed. I am usually very hopeful person and positive and still am, however my brain does what it wants when it wants. Unfair I have in the past done trauma therapy, EMDR, and It works well on me, not sure yet if my knew therapist does this. Been having issues with husband on how to raise our Grandsons and how to deal with a high maintenance child is stress on us both. He just recently started going to therapy with me. Hope we have good results.
I hope your going to heal in time too. Nope its not easy. Sending hugs,
Grandma

[seesaw]

Healing thoughts to you, Grandma. Be kind and gentle with yourself.

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