New here... sorry really negative!

I've only posted an introduction on psychcentral and decided it was about time I posted some more instead of reading and wishing I had the guts to post as well!

So, I was diagnosed with complex PTSD in April this year after having a complete breakdown. I spent 4 months in a psychiatric hospital and it's not even a month since I was discharged. I'm really not coping well though.

So, it's pretty unusual but my psychiatrist is also my therapist. He's great and I feel lucky to have him as my doctor and therapist. Been in therapy for five months now and I just feel I'm not making any progress. I'm so resistant it's ridiculous, but I don't feel like I have any control over it.

I want to withdraw from the "support system" around me, including my T, but I know if I do that, they're likely to detain me again, under the mental health act. I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place.

I don't even know what the point is in posting this but thought I'd reach out to some who might understand.

How do you carry on when everything within you is telling you not to?

Hi StillIRise, welcome to PC and the PTSD forum. Well, you did good there, just posted how you feel right now, good for you.

A breakdown can happen with anyone. A person can push and push for a long time and build up a great deal of stress to where they can just get to a point where they tire themselves out both emotionally and physically.

It is actually "normal" that in rebuilding one's self after a break down, a person doesn't want to feel like they "have" to do anything. A lot of people "change" things about what they have been doing and just do things that are very "different" too. We are actually designed to be that way, it is how we thrived because we were constantly moving around and changing things and learning as we did so. Every generation is a bit different than the one before too.

Today, the important thing for you is you just posted who you are and what you are doing and feeling right now, that is "doing" something different and is "your choice".
That is a good start!

((Hugs))
OE

Hey StillIRise .

I have been an active member of this site for around 10 months. In that time I have received some really constructive feedback and connected with several others with similar challenges to myself. For those that feel alone, or simply wanting to reach out for a chat without judgement......this is the place. I have also found hanging out in the Games Forums is a welcome distraction... a great way to have some well needed fun, and meet like minded others.

Be kind to yourself StillIRise , and welcome to P.C.

Hi - me too! Been here a while and it feels like family. Helps a lot to know you are not alone. It is very hard many days to face it. But please stay with your doctor. It isn't that unusual for doctors to be therapists as well, some still do, but here in the us it is declining. Probably because they can turn over more patients per hour doing medical management doling out pills, making more money.

Thank you very much for your reply, I really appreciate it.


Thank you for your reply, it really helps to hear from others. I'll check the Games section out, distraction is always welcome!


Thanks for your reply you're right, it really does help to know you're not alone. I'm in the UK and was led to believe it was unusual for a psychiatrist to also be your therapist, either way I'm grateful for him and really trying to stick with it!