Complex PTSD and blank memories question

Hi all

Newbie here.

I have Complex PTSD and my psych is using exposure therapy, mindfulness techniques and CBT as treatment. I'm only 8 weeks into treatment but am finding my moods so low (very depressed, suicidal thoughts) that i'm thinking of quitting and getting the drugs. Any opinions or experiences on that?

I'm also finding that i had blank areas of sexual abuse but am getting fragments of memory coming back, its of me watching the incidents from above, out of body. I'm unsure if these are real memories though or whether i'm so desperate to remember that my mind is imagining stuff .... I feel like i'm going crazy.

Fun times

Hi hrg1999, I would maybe keep going to treatment but also see about the medication too, if it were me. Sometimes I think therapy makes us think too much and does confuse us. maybe just cut back. I really don't know to much about all these treatments so I probably am not the best person to say anything. I just know if it were me and I was having doubts and getting more depressed I would stop for a bit. But that's just me and I hate being depressed. I am here for you if you need to talk. I wish you the best.

Hi hrg1999, welcome to PC and the PTSD forums. I am sorry to hear that therapy is stirring things up for you. You should definitely talk to your therapist about this challenge and maybe only have therapy every other week, or maybe your therapist is doing too much with you and needs to slow things down a bit.

I have not had the specific kind of therapy, maybe it's a bit too much for you right now, I think you need to talk this over with your T. You may need to go on some medication or as I mentioned slow it down.

((Welcoming Hugs)))
OE