[CosmicRose]

Two days ago I was arguing with my dad and screamed at him. I decided to post this in the PTSD section because I have PTSD and thought maybe this was linked to it somehow. I feel so so so bad for screaming at my dad because he is old. he's always been there for me and he's a great dad but we were arguing because of the dogs being in the house and I'm severely allergic to them - I know, it's stupid. I wrote about this on another forum and everyone said "GROW UP! MOVE OUT!" and made me feel even worse. I called him mean names and got irate. I can't believe I can lose my temper like that and have a full on adult temper tantrum. I'm not happy with my life right now and I have been experiencing a lot of frustrations with my personal life lately.
My dad even said during the fight that if I don't like the dogs in the same room as me, I need to move out. I know he's right but it made me so mad because ever since I was 13 when he owned 6 dogs I feel like he's been putting them before my quality of life and health.
He only has 3 now but they aren't trained and they're allowed to do anything they want like ruin the carpet or be obnoxious and annoying, constantly barking, etc.
I feel so bad about calling my dad those horrible names that I've apologized to him twice now. He said "I've already forgotten about it so you should too."
I always worry about losing him because he has a lot of health problems, plus the fact that I'm trying to move out this year - I know I won't be around him much longer and just losing it like that made me feel awful.
I feel like I'm not the daughter he deserves.

[Open Eyes]

Hi CosmicRose,

Yes, it could be due to the PTSD, when someone is stressed enough, or overwhelmed that has PTSD that can lead to an episode of releasing anger. It's definitely listed in the symptoms of PTSD.

Do you see a therapist to help you Cosmic?

It sounds like you are stressing, worried about things "if they take place" you cannot control. I am glad your father was understanding with you, he is willing to forgive you and not hold a grudge, that is very nice of him.

You need to slow down and do your best to reduce the stress you are having. Take things one day at a time, enjoy your father and try to slow down or go for a nice walk when you feel the stress building up in you.

((Hugs))
OE

[Teacake]

I have histamine and ptsd. Something I react to raises histamine. The body regulates histamine my releasing adrenaline, the fight or flight hormone. Its been proven that raising adrenaline can trigger flashbacks. One of the things we have to do about ptsd is train our character so we can be screaming mad and not behave shamefully. Its impossible but we can try (coming from a fifty year old who made the talky hand at her mother this week).

I hear you too about changing your situation and being emotional about it. And I think im not too wrong about injecting in there that maybe you think you light to stay with your dad to look after him. Its hard to go at any age. We dont have them forever. Youll work that out.

Never underestimate the benefits of good allergy medicine.

Your dad is right. Move on. Its over. Dads dont get old without saying things in anger they regret to people they love. He understands.

A nasal steroid is a wonderful thing.