[Zen888]

I am completely emotionally numb to the point I have a hard time relating to ppl that I am close with. Go from feeling anger to sadness to absolutely nothing. I am at a lose as to how to feel comfortable in a group of ppl my own age and not feel out of place....like high school deja vu.

[sickntired]

I am sorry you are feeling like this

I too often feel this way,awkward in a group.I find what sometimes works for me is to ask people questions about things they are interested in,then the spotlight moves from you to them and they do all the talking

(((((((((( Zen888 )))))))))

I can relate to this, Zen.

I get tired of putting on my social mask and "acting" like I'm comfortable.

But if I do take it off, people don't know how to react to the depth of my emotions because I've hidden them so well over the years. So I drag the mask back out and slap it on my face again. And again.

People are more comfortable with the outgoing, funny Petunia so the sadness and anger and everything elses stays contained...and I become numb.

((( HUGS )))

[Soidhonia]

(((((((((((((ZEN))))))))
I am sorry you feel so isolated at this time due to feeling out of place. It is sometimes hard to relate to others that you are around, and feel displaced. There is a chat room here at Psych central that has helped somewhat for people that feel displaced or isolated, and you are welcome to come and chat anytime you are available. Journaling is very good for feeling displaced as well, as a younger person I wrote poetry and that helped tremendously not to feel as isolated and alone. Sometimes you just have to find your own interests that make you feel like you are an individual and at times it is hard if you different, but you can turn that into a very promising antedote to isolation later in life. Being different can be a plus and comfort at times when you are around the right environmental influences and when you dfind friends and aquaintences that share the same interests as yourself. Take care and try to take one day at a time. Have a good day. Soidhonia

[Zen888]

Exactly Petunia!

I have discovered the same thing about ppl. After a while they get tired of listening to my sadness & anger...so pretending everything is fine is more comforting to them. The masque eventually cracks and I find myself acting out ...... and leave feeling ashamed of myself.

Isn't it a relief to have friends that understand?

[UCLAFan]

Going thourgh the same thing. I know it is tough. I recently went back to counseling to get help.Hope things work out for you and everyone else that feels like this. At times i have ahard time crying. Instead i get really ticked off. But then at times i cry like a baby.