[InACorner]

I dont know where to put this ....warning contains context with my hallucinations and paranoia .....
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I know they are there....but i dont exactly see them....i see parts of them....i feel them .....i know they are there....i just dont see all of them....
the little girl is either in the corner...or hiding in my closet or standing right beside my bed...staring at me .....but i dont see her face...but i know she is staring....staring between the cracks of the closet...she is there...laying beside me in my bed....she is grotesque, she is disgusting, she is evil ....
the man, he stands by the door, behind the door...in the doorway....i dont see him exactly but i know he is there...just standing there....staring at me...he is power....bad power....menacing power.....
the girl torments me more than the man....because she is pure evil .....
they are coming to get me....they know what i am doing...they watch me....they know where i am at all times....they watch me from the corners...they sit in the empty chairs....sleep in the empty beds....i cant get away from them ....i cannot cannot cannot cannot
i almost hear them at times....waiting for me to let my guard down ...waiting for me to sleep ....waiting for me to walk into a dark area...well i wont sleep....i refuse .......i refuse to go into dark areas..the tv is always on at night.....creating light and noise....i just hope they dont turn it off.....they might turn off my world....and silence the people around me ..........they might get me alone....and time may stop .....i hope not ...dear lord i hope not.....i got to find a way to trick them....i got to mix them up ......

[Numbers]

I'm sorry you're going through this Inny.

Take care

(((((((((inny)))))))))))))

if only i was there to protect you

but im here
im sorry
love u

[pegasus]

((((((((((( InACorner ))))))))))))))

The fact that you have posted this in the PTSD forum is an indication that some of this is flashbacks/memories. Possibly not all of it as the mind can do some amazing things when trying to slot the memories into the correct part of the brain.

I'm no expert but your name is InACorner (the little girl in the corner) seems to make sense. Your view is that the little girl is evil, no child is evil but an abuser can make a child believe that this is so. The man could possibly be your abuser?

Sorry if I am totally wrong.

I hope you have a T to help you with this, flashbacks quite often occur when the memory is fragmented and the brain is trying to work out the whole story.

Take care.

[InACorner]

i honestly have no idea....you could be right....
my real father was abusive as well as my stepfather....
to tell you the truth....i just kinda put that screenname up without thinking about it...but your right ...it does make sense...