[9GuineaPig9]

I have a bit of a conundrum. I very much want to see a therapist for my PTSD, but I kind of need therapy to see a therapist. I went to therapy when I was in high school, and I saw a counselor while I was in college, but I'm scared to go to a therapist. I got attached to my therapist, and then I wasn't able to see them anymore, so I'm really scared about opening up to a new therapist. Plus, I don't want to have to spill my guts to someone if it turns out it wouldn't be a good fit. I've been through some long-term, severe stuff, and I don't have the strength to spill my guts to several people who don't work out. In fact, knowing myself, I would probably stay with someone I didn't click with rather than try to find another therapist. My rationalization would be, "At least I'm getting some therapy, right?".

tl;dr Opening up to potentially several people about the stuff I've been through is too much. I don't even know how to properly carry on a relationship with a therapist.

Any recommendations? I'm just so scared to see someone.

[wheredidthepartygo]

i understand your dilemma
i've been wanting to get help for years but a big chunk of my trauma is doctor related and so trying to get help from the people who originally hurt me was/is not working
i wish there was therapy for therapy

[Quarter life]

Hi 9GuineaPig9.

There are lots of good listeners here at Psych Central....we're a pretty good bunch.

I have been an active member of this site for around 15 months. In that time I have received some really constructive feedback and connected with several others with similar challenges to myself. For those that feel alone, or simply wanting to reach out for a chat without judgement......this is the place. I have also found hanging out in the Games Forums is a welcome distraction... a great way to have some well needed fun, and meet like minded others.

Be kind to yourself 9GuineaPig9 and welcome to P.C

[Skywalking]

9GuineaPig9,

I have asked this question many times, and I'm sorry to say I haven't found a good answer yet.

The answers others have shared with me have included:

1. Just suck it up and do it
2. Take someone you trust with you for support
3. Say outright you have problems trusting and that you're not even sure how to go about doing therapy

Maybe one of those could help you though admittedly they haven't worked for me.