PTSD?

First off, something is kind of blocking me from even writing this post. But at the same time, I would really like to, maybe to try and connect with others about it? Or to see if anyone else has this too? I don't even really know what to say about it, or truly what I am hoping to get out of posting this. But I guess I was just wondering what anyone thinks about if its possible to get PTSD due to a .

I mean it is a near death experience so meets criterion 1. And then I look through the other criteria and a lot of things are there, but not all. Like not really many (if any) flashbacks (maybe cause I won't let myself go there though). And no dreams. Mostly just thoughts and fear. Like I'm still dying or possibly dead or something... Even though I have all the medical paperwork like insurance claims and bills that describe all the treatment they used to save my life. Well part of me does not see how I could have or did survive it. I believe in God, so if anything, I guess it is just going on faith about the whole thing and that God is the reason I am still alive. But then I can even get into some pretty obscure ideas about that (which I don't want to go into).

Well anyways. I was just triggered by who knows what about the whole thing even though it has been 9 months now. I think it is because my chest started hurting whenever I laughed today, which was weird. So then I started googling to find out what could cause that and came across lung problems. Which got me thinking that I had seen something about that on my medical papers from the hospital care I received 9 months ago. So then I went back digging through all the paperwork and reread it all. I was treated for a collapsed lung and through searching the internet, I read that once this has happened to a person it could happen again. I was so freaked out and worried (probably hypochondria type more than ptsd but who knows), that I called the hospital to try and ask them about it. I never received any discharge papers from the hospital, which I though was strange. Never talked to the doctor about what all happened during treatment at the hospital. Idk, I guess I just get freaked out easily about stuff like this now. I don't think I used to. The hospital people just told me that they could not give me any info over the phone but I could come in if I felt I needed to. Guess I'm not that freaked out yet. Maybe it will go away.

So I guess that's that. I also read the PTSD section (well started to) of the DSM V because I'm taking a psych class and it is just interesting to me anyways. So I randomly opened the book to start reading and turned right to the PTSD part. So that is probably also what triggered all this. Well, I guess if you read this, thank you. Hope you are doing ok in your world in your life. This is the next best thing to a support group I think. Not even sure what support group I would go to if I could or if there are even any around. Ok then, take care and good night.

well anything is possible..............you could have a rib out and just need to see a chiropractor............if you want to look for a support group, check nami.org and see if there is a local support group in your area. i went to one here years ago. i went for about 6-9 months but was so excited to find someone who i could identify with so well ptsd wise that her and i are still friend now like 5/6 years later.

Thanks for reply Kaliope. I'm glad you were able to find a support group and make a good friend.

The lung thing turned out to be nothing and it went away. I was just being paranoid about that. The PTSD stuff feels kind of real. I don't know what compelled me to write about the experience for a class and share with a small peer group and my professor but I wish I hadn't gone that far. The assignment was for a personal story that was emotional. The first things that came to mind were the suicide attempt and psychotic break. Don't really want to go to my one on one with the teacher about it now. Really ashamed about the whole thing.

This seemed to bring back feelings about it all after class. I mean I was scared to go to sleep again because I was afraid I was going to die. However, the whole thing is different for me because it wasn't abuse I brought this on myself. So not sure it counts. Got petty weird about things that night because of things related to the psychotic break also. I think about these things all the time - daily. Today I didn't even want to leave the house so missed all my classes. I don't think that's normal for me. I think I would have just gone no matter what if I were not dealing with all this. More depressed now. Should just go get some exercise and think positive thoughts I guess.

It doesn't matter what brought it on it counts. This was a very Trumatic experience for you and it is causing difficulty for you in your daily life right now. When I went to school it triggered all kinds of things from my past which led to a major breakdown. I often wrote about and shared too many personal experiences because they came to the surface and I did not know what to do about them. I think it is important that you find a therapist who specializes in trauma to help you through this time.

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