Having a hard time

I am really having a hard time. I was assaulted almost a week ago in a certain way. I can't say, it is too difficult for me. I have been having a really hard time dealing with all of this stuff. I also had to get a protection order yesterday because the guy has been showing up where I live and well that is not a good thing. I saw him twice last week and he has been hanging around outside the building I live in. I have been really freaked out. Last week I also tried a partial hospitalization program, thinking that it would help me to have something everyday but unfortunately, it did not help and may have actually harmed me. I was doing a good job of talking about things, or trying to. But since I was discharged from the program (because I asked to be) I have shut everything in. Well I also have not been getting much support here where I live. I live in an assisted living facility and well they havent been helping me much, which well that's what they are there for. From my assault I had to go to the ER and have surgery at 2 am to fix the damage that was done. I was bleeding so much that they were going to give me a blood transfusion. This all really freaks me out. Right now all they have down to give him is a 3rd degree assault charge. Which I honestly don't think is right . I want it to be the other kind of assault. I am still physically trying to recooperate from the assault. My incision got infected and so they had to open it back up and that was like 3 weeks ago. I also had to get some tests done and my insurance is not going to pick up the charges even though I have 2 insurances. One being medicaid. I am just really upset over all of this. Not getting support is really really hard. I really need to get some support. Well I will quit bothering you all.

Jennifer

oh Jennifer, [[[[[ hugs ]]]]] you're not a bother at all, I'm so sorry.

I'm at a loss for words, but wanted you to know that I care. I hope you get some support that you need right here, and can begin the process of healing.

(((((( Jennifer )))))))

I also hope that you start getting better support IRL. I know it isn't the same, but you can always get support here. It sounds like you have really been through a lot, and since you are still dealing with the aftermath it probably feels ongoing. I am so sorry that those things are happening to you. I wish that I could do more to help.

((((((Jennifer))))))) I am so sorry all that has happened to you. I wish I could be there to hold your hand through it. We care here! Feel free to pm me anytime.

(((((hugs)))))
I am so so very sorry this has happenned to you...
freewill

gentle hugs baby, so sorry this happened to you. take gentle care of yourself and dont ever think you are bothering anyone in here, support is what pc is all about.

i hope you feel better soon, mentally and physically.

love, jinnyann xoxoxoxoxxo