[rep97]

So I started taking zoloft a couple months ago and I am noticing results but I am still frustrated and depressed.

Before the zoloft I would be in constant pain and terror 24/7 but now I am a little better but I still find myself depressed .. just 30% less than before maybe.

Now I would be depressed when I wake up and then I would watch something on tv and then for a sec or two I would get a jolt of joy and I would chase that thought .. to think what it was that made me happy and I can't find anything. This is frustrating because the small spells of happiness that I find are just that.. small moments.

So what I mean is I am trapped in my mind and no connection to my body/gut and dissociating this way and finding no joy from life.

Can anyone relate? How did you fix it .. if you managed to fix it at all?

[IrisBloom]

Patience is the word. Recovery is a slow process. Your mind and body are repairing themselves. You may not notice big changes week to week or month to month, but one day you will look back and see a lot has improved.

If you think you are at a stand-still with the meds, ask your doc for an increase. I'd give it another month or so to tell tho.

Be kind to yourself!

[elevatedsoul]

in my experience, the meds wont fix it for you... just have to work through it - the meds might help a little... but you have to be stronger than you ever imagined - look at the meds as a crutch - but not a cure... keep trying.. couple months might be the crucial period of when the medicine is trying to take effect...

do be kind to yourself... because its easy not to in these times...

[DesigningWoman]

Originally Posted by rep97

So I started taking zoloft a couple months ago and I am noticing results but I am still frustrated and depressed.

Before the zoloft I would be in constant pain and terror 24/7 but now I am a little better but I still find myself depressed .. just 30% less than before maybe.

Now I would be depressed when I wake up and then I would watch something on tv and then for a sec or two I would get a jolt of joy and I would chase that thought .. to think what it was that made me happy and I can't find anything. This is frustrating because the small spells of happiness that I find are just that.. small moments.

So what I mean is I am trapped in my mind and no connection to my body/gut and dissociating this way and finding no joy from life.

Can anyone relate? How did you fix it .. if you managed to fix it at all?

You won't fix it all immediately. Dealing with PTSD takes a time, patience, (Meds for me), intensive talk therapy, and a great deal of hard work. You can't fast forward through it. I know I wish I could. I am not good at waiting and admitting I have control issues.
I had been making steady good progress; then, I had a really bad setback last week out of nowhere. I had a terrible episode of disassociation with a few lesser eps after. I realized I have been getting back into negative PTSD habits. I am angry at myself. But I have to remember that sometimes things will go well and sometimes not. That it's a tough, long journey and I have to be kind, good, and proud of myself all along the way.