[MtnTime2896]

How does this work? I've officially been diagnosed with PTSD, went into a month of hospitalization for it and all of the sudden I'm dangerous?
Are you ****ing kidding me?
"I think you need to go back to the hospital."
"I think you need someone around you 24/7."
"You need to calm down or I'm calling 911." -Coming from someone who just told me that I'm not trying hard enough and yeah, I got a little upset.

What am I, a time bomb. If things get too bad, again, I'll handle it. I'll let someone know I need some help. Just 'cause I'm a little messed up right now I need a constant baby-sitter and someone there to hold my hand? Just 'cause I'm messed up I'm going to hurt someone? I will if they keep this up, punch someone right in the throat if they ask me one more time if I'm okay. (Not really, but I want to).
Of course I'm not "okay". I have PTSD and fall into flashbacks so heavily I completely disassociate. I'm depressed to a point where I'm hardly able to smile. I spend the majority of my day feeling like I'm in a dream. Yes, I'm hyper-vigilant as ****. And yes, I'm angry: At every single person treating me like a handicapped time-bomb who's hand needs held. I think I'd be better off if every single one of these people crawled down and out of my ***. (I'm not talking about anyone on PC, you guys are awesome).
And people wonder why 1) I stopped telling the truth when directly asked. And 2) Why I stopped telling any one of these wanna-be therapists what's going on inside my head.

I'm so done with people right now.

[Skeezyks]

[passionfruit3]

I think there was a film i watched on ptsd were the guy came home from war and ripped his kids ear piercing out i don't know if this is how people with ptsd are during flashbacks or more stigma but I'd like to think your not a bad person your ptsd is oh and the world is **** i forgot lol

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[MtnTime2896]

A lot of that sort of thing is stigma but has some truth lying in it. Yes, I could very easily (non-intentionally) hurt someone but the thing is that I know when I'm reaching that point. I get myself alone and safe so that nothing bad will happen. I'm actually pretty good about knowing when I need a "time-out", I guess you could call it. I just hate that people are scared of me because of it. I don't want to hurt anyone and I never have but they make me feel like I'm some sort of uncontrollable monster or something. Like I'm a hair-trigger or grenade just waiting to go off.

Honestly, I just got told to go kill myself and got called a "PTSD freak" by my own sister. You know, I've been told a lot worse by people who I never thought would say those types of things but it still kind of hurts knowing that my own sister wants me dead. Wants me dead because I'm just a "suicidal *****" who's crazy and don't mean jack. Wants me to get cancer again and this time, die from it.

I ****ing give up.

[avlady]

what a mean person your sister is. i have ptsd and try to keep it quiet, because of the stigma. head injuries like mine are not understood and people are ignorant or just don't want to deal with it. i hope you can feel more positive and learn more about this issue!

[BastetsMuse]

Both my husband and I have PTSD and we manage to support each other and live with it. We do see pdocs and take medications. Some times are harder than others. You'll get through the worst of yours, I know you will.