PTSD triggered by recent event.

Yes, it's particularly difficult to deal with these types of conflicts when no one ever taught you how to deal with them growing up.

She probably has no idea how she sounds. That's actually common. Sometimes, when people are having these kinds of communication problems, they will record a conversation so each can hear how they sound. The results can be really surprising to them. I've never done it before, but would love to record and evening with my sister so she could hear how she sounds when she talks to me.

I'm bit upset today because I had stalker nightmares last night.


Luckily, I take meds for nightmares and although they don't stop the dreams totally, they make it so that when I do have a nightmare, I am not frightened in it. So, I wake up disturbed, but not terrified.

No luck with my dad as he refuses to even discuss the break-ins.

Thanks for asking.

Yes, Texas doesn't have a lot of business regulations, so there's lots of successful businesses here which keeps the economy strong. I love Texas, but not the city where I'm living, not at all. Nothing good has ever happened to me in this city.

I'm largely supported by my father, but I get a little money from the government, but just a few hundred dollars and not remotely enough to live on.

--Ceara1010

Ceara,I am sorry you have had no luck with getting your dad to see the truth.

Nightmares are awful aren't they,they hit at the heart of your furnace and put out the flames,you need to sleep and rest and the mind and body is renewed during sleep but nightmares make rest impossible.

I dreamt last night my late father was asking how I was and was working in France selling French newspapers at a kiosk.And I need a new carpet so my sister bought me a large yellow rug with roses on it,can't understand what it means.The other night I dreamt there were maggots on my carpet and my dad was sweeping them away and stopping them eating up my carpet I think that one means I'd managed to stop my own death and putting myself in a grave to be eaten by maggots and dad by sweeping the maggots away was saying he was glad he had managed to show me what my mother and sister were up to and thus prevent my death.

Texas sounds good.We get help here from the gov when ill,I get enough to live on from them though we are getting a new right wing government so that may change it is a worry!

I am having second thoughts about letting my friend back in, mainly because I know for sure she was being sarcastic and after what I went through that was so cruel and uncaring.Secondly, she never contacts me first,I always contact her usually to offer her a free cinema ticket for us to see a film together. Inbetween getting herself a free cinema ticket she doesn't bother with me,never texts to see if I am ok or need support,I really do think if I didn't text her first I'd never see her again.Also I told her what you said about her not being sarcastic was ******** and that I was angry with her for lying like that.,....and she didn't reply to my last text,just ignored it cos it didn't suit her to listen to me....so really I am reluctant to get back in touch with her.If she is a nasty person underneath it all I don't want to keep in touch with her just so I won't be isolated,that is wrong.
Can I ask how do you spend your time during the days, do you find you have a lot of time to fill and get lonely not having regular conversations,cos in-between seeing my niece and having the gardener and handyman in,I see no one?

I think the large yellow rug mean my narcissistic sister is giving me a lot of fear hence the yellow and the red roses are to shed blood,make me cry and stick thorns in me and cause me physical and emotional harm.
The maggots as I say my father is killing them so I have survived the attempts to bring about my physical death and will not be six foot under being eaten by maggots!