[Wander]

Last nigh a FB conversation triggered me badly. I instantly became filled with rage and SI. i was a benign conversation but one topic triggered me. I lost it and was filled with rage. I am IP right now or I would have done something drastic. My friend on FB talked me down, he was so sweet and understanding and encouraging. the nurses gave me meds and watched over me til I calmed down. This kept me safe.

Does anyone else get triggered so fast and so powerfully. It scared me how quickly I lost control.

[BrazenApogee]

Yup, and I had to delete fb to get away from a lot of that stuff. It's easier to deal with triggers in real life interactions, because people can see and hear how you are doing. There is a real human interaction. I found it better, to restrict myself to human contact. This forum aside, as this forum is a huge support and worth gold.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by BrazenApogee

Yup, and I had to delete fb to get away from a lot of that stuff. It's easier to deal with triggers in real life interactions, because people can see and hear how you are doing. There is a real human interaction. I found it better, to restrict myself to human contact. This forum aside, as this forum is a huge support and worth gold.

Thanks, but this conversation was with a good friend and could have happened in any context. It was on FB that he supported me and talked me down. Fo now I will stick with FB but be more careful with what i discuss.

[betweenarock]

Yep. It can happen very quick

[PumpkinPieHead]

Yep. Like the hulk. it's scary.

[MtnTime2896]

It is perfectly possible to have that happen. It's more likely when you've had little to no sleep and/or you're dehydrated.
Because, lately, I don't sleep for more than four hours at a time with at least twenty seven hours in between; I've been dealing with a lot of this. Extreme and intense rage, flashbacks, panic attacks etc..
I've also noticed that the faster it comes on, the stronger it is which is a lot more difficult for me to come down from.

[Wander]

yes the quicker the onset the more dramatic the reaction. Had an hour long chat with the best nurse and it was incredibly helpful. She is helping find alternate solutions to suicide when triggered. Easier said than done but i believe we made progress. Still on edge but calmer thanks to chat and meds.

Só leigheas, is their anyway you can get more sleep. It must be only making things worse for you. BIG hugs

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Wander

yes the quicker the onset the more dramatic the reaction. Had an hour long chat with the best nurse and it was incredibly helpful. She is helping find alternate solutions to suicide when triggered. Easier said than done but i believe we made progress. Still on edge but calmer thanks to chat and meds.

Só leigheas, is their anyway you can get more sleep. It must be only making things worse for you. BIG hugs

During my depressive episode and even my mixed, it wasn't that bad; I had a lot of control and a lot of good progress grounding myself. The suicidal impulse was strong but not my PTSD. I've noticed that now that I'm hypomanic, not sleeping and just having an insane amount of energy; I'm extremely trigger sensitive right now. I was just laying with my fiance and stared up at the light, next thing I know my fiance's trying to calm me down out of a flashback. I've also had a lot more panic attacks in the past week.
The doc gave me Trazadone but I don't take it. Makes the dissociation and depersonalization episodes worse; that I generally feel like crap the day after.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

During my depressive episode and even my mixed, it wasn't that bad; I had a lot of control and a lot of good progress grounding myself. The suicidal impulse was strong but not my PTSD. I've noticed that now that I'm hypomanic, not sleeping and just having an insane amount of energy; I'm extremely trigger sensitive right now. I was just laying with my fiance and stared up at the light, next thing I know my fiance's trying to calm me down out of a flashback. I've also had a lot more panic attacks in the past week.
The doc gave me Trazadone but I don't take it. Makes the dissociation and depersonalization episodes worse; that I generally feel like crap the day after.

Maybe a different med would help better. It is ok to live on less sleep for a week or two but it can unravel after that. Can you exercise to burn off some energy? Do all you can to stay away from triggers.

[MtnTime2896]

I try but no matter how much I run, get chores done etc., I just never feel like I need to rest. I feel like I can go for days before I have to relax, even then I wake up feeling like I'm ready to go all over again.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I try but no matter how much I run, get chores done etc., I just never feel like I need to rest. I feel like I can go for days before I have to relax, even then I wake up feeling like I'm ready to go all over again.

Sounds like mania. Can you call your doctor. Maybe you need better meds to knock this off its feet before it gets dangerous.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Wander

Sounds like mania. Can you call your doctor. Maybe you need better meds to knock this off its feet before it gets dangerous.

I might call him later today. I have my appointment tomorrow, though. I'm just getting nervous due to it's intensity. Sometimes I get a break, like right now where I can just sit on a computer and switch between multiple tabs and type. Other times, I just feel like I need to run for no reason. Or I have to put half my body out the window of a moving car so I can feel the wind and see the stars. I'm starting to feel like an adrenaline junky.

It's like, I know what's happening isn't right, but I don't actually realize it until after the fact and when people get mad at me for it.

[betweenarock]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I might call him later today. I have my appointment tomorrow, though. I'm just getting nervous due to it's intensity. Sometimes I get a break, like right now where I can just sit on a computer and switch between multiple tabs and type. Other times, I just feel like I need to run for no reason. Or I have to put half my body out the window of a moving car so I can feel the wind and see the stars. I'm starting to feel like an adrenaline junky.

It's like, I know what's happening isn't right, but I don't actually realize it until after the fact and when people get mad at me for it.

Warm water helps me. Warm bath with lots of epsom salt and I'm a fan of vicks and lavender. Find what gives you some comfort. I also have a favorite blanket. I know it sounds ridiculous but it helps. Too, melatonin at 3 mgs. More does not work for me. Lean diet

Facebook was really bad for me. My old abusers would always pop up as friend suggestion and I would see them post bullying messages on my other friends wall. I had a complete nervous breakdown. It wasn't in an instant...I tried to rationalize but I went overboard and became full blown delusional and sure they were after me again and plotting things with groups of people. Very paranoid and hyper vigilant.

I've recently been triggered and having flashbacks and horrible nightmares about the abuse and I find I am triggered pretty consistently right now. I definately feel the peanut gallery gearing up to attack. It's terrifying but I'm trying to fight against it and remain reasonable.

(((Hugs to you Wander))). Having past trauma play on repeat like a broken record with no ability to stop or control it is horrible!

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Facebook was really bad for me. My old abusers would always pop up as friend suggestion and I would see them post bullying messages on my other friends wall. I had a complete nervous breakdown. It wasn't in an instant...I tried to rationalize but I went overboard and became full blown delusional and sure they were after me again and plotting things with groups of people. Very paranoid and hyper vigilant.

I've recently been triggered and having flashbacks and horrible nightmares about the abuse and I find I am triggered pretty consistently right now. I definately feel the peanut gallery gearing up to attack. It's terrifying but I'm trying to fight against it and remain reasonable.

(((Hugs to you Wander))). Having past trauma play on repeat like a broken record with no ability to stop or control it is horrible!

Thats awful. FB can be such a burden sometimes. I wish it had a wisely created filter that could remove this stuff before it triggered up. I bet they would pay millions for such a program...programmers??? Anyone??