[RubyRae]

My head feels heavy.

My eyesight is a bit blurry because it feels like too much effort to focus them.

I feel like I'm half asleep,almost like I am sleep walking,like if I don't make a conscious effort to stay present I would drift away .

Conversations with others are off because when they talk to me it's taking a few seconds for their words to sink in. Then I have to think of a response but it's hard to.

Noises are amplified and my reaction to them are over the top.Each noise feels dangerous and I jump and let out a little scream.It doesn't make sense though since I feel so zoned out,IDK how my heart can instantly pound like that.

I sense danger lurking outside of my vision,like I wish I could see all the way around me,especially behind me.I sense some type of attack on me.

My loved ones don't feel like loved ones.They feel like dangerous enemies that I should be very cautious of and not trust.What are they plotting against me?Are they going to hurt me or kill me?Those are things I keep thinking.They ask me what's wrong but I won't dare tell then what I'm thinking.

I feel the urge to cry in my stomach but it feels stuck there.

My muscles are si tensed up I can't get them to relax.My jaws are clenched,ny shoulders are pulled high and it hurts to try to lower them.

I have been getting surges of panic,like adrenaline rushes.They feel so horrible and intense.IDK how I can be having them when I feel so zoned out.

I had a hard time sleeping last night and I kept thinking about something from the past,from my childhood but I can't think of what it was,when I try to my head feels numb.

All these different things are going on at once.And I have no clue what I was triggered by.

But I know it will all pass eventually and I will be fine.I just have to ride it out.

Can anyone else relate to what I am experiencing?

[Open Eyes]

From the symptoms you are sharing here it sounds like when you get triggered you experience a confusing PTSD cycle that is probably a flashback from something in your past or is attached to a recent traumatic experience. These episodes can most definitely leave the person feeling very disconnected to others, even family members. Yes, one can also be very sensitive to noise too.

Are you seeing a therapist that specializes in PTSD and trauma therapy?

[RubyRae]

I have been few quite a few years of trauma therapy with a psychologist that specializes in it.

I mostly just wanted to share one of the ways my PTSD presents itself and the symptoms I experience when triggered to see if anyone else goes through this too.

I am doing so much better than before therapy,I have learned to just ride it all out the best I can until it passes.

[katydid777]

Originally Posted by RubyRae

My head feels heavy.

My eyesight is a bit blurry because it feels like too much effort to focus them.

I feel like I'm half asleep,almost like I am sleep walking,like if I don't make a conscious effort to stay present I would drift away .

Conversations with others are off because when they talk to me it's taking a few seconds for their words to sink in. Then I have to think of a response but it's hard to.

Noises are amplified and my reaction to them are over the top.Each noise feels dangerous and I jump and let out a little scream.It doesn't make sense though since I feel so zoned out,IDK how my heart can instantly pound like that.

I sense danger lurking outside of my vision,like I wish I could see all the way around me,especially behind me.I sense some type of attack on me.

My loved ones don't feel like loved ones.They feel like dangerous enemies that I should be very cautious of and not trust.What are they plotting against me?Are they going to hurt me or kill me?Those are things I keep thinking.They ask me what's wrong but I won't dare tell then what I'm thinking.

I feel the urge to cry in my stomach but it feels stuck there.

My muscles are si tensed up I can't get them to relax.My jaws are clenched,ny shoulders are pulled high and it hurts to try to lower them.

I have been getting surges of panic,like adrenaline rushes.They feel so horrible and intense.IDK how I can be having them when I feel so zoned out.

I had a hard time sleeping last night and I kept thinking about something from the past,from my childhood but I can't think of what it was,when I try to my head feels numb.

All these different things are going on at once.And I have no clue what I was triggered by.

But I know it will all pass eventually and I will be fine.I just have to ride it out.

Can anyone else relate to what I am experiencing?

I go through a lot of that when i get triggered, but i havent learned how to handle it yet. I had a very good T, that after at least 2 years, i'm not sure how long, any way was able to get through my thick head that my life as it is, isn't normal, and i should be able to have a little happiness in it. But the bad thing is i lost her in Jan of this year, and they haven't gotten me another yet. And when they do, will i be able to continue from where she has gotten me, witch hasn't been very far yet? I hope so, I want to be happy for what ever time the good Lord gives me. But yes i react mostly like this!!!!!!! (((((((HUGS)))))))

[LostOnTheTrail]

I feel like I'm half asleep,almost like I am sleep walking,like if I don't make a conscious effort to stay present I would drift away .

This is my experience moving through the world on a daily basis...most of my 'stuff' comes back to haunt me at night, though...so I don't have the respite of sleep.

[MoxieDoxie]

I am triggered I get tunnel vision and it seems like I get super human vision.

I feel like my heart slowed down but when it does pump it pumps explosively. It feels bounding.

I become very light sensitive like I need to put sun glasses on.

I feel like I am shaking like a magnitude 5 earth quake but when I look at my hands they are not shaking like that.

I feel if I do not knock myself unconscious with drugs or bashing my head I will kill myself just to escape everything I am feeling. This is where I panic and desperately call my ex-T.

Everything RubyRae said is what I feel when I am coming down from being triggered. Mainly I feel like I got hit by a truck and am so exhausted I can not concentrate on anything.

"My head feels heavy.

My eyesight is a bit blurry because it feels like too much effort to focus them.

I feel like I'm half asleep,almost like I am sleep walking,like if I don't make a conscious effort to stay present I would drift away .

Conversations with others are off because when they talk to me it's taking a few seconds for their words to sink in. Then I have to think of a response but it's hard to.

Noises are amplified and my reaction to them are over the top"

[RubyRae]

Thanks for the replies here,it's good to know I'm not alone with what I experience.

It has all passed now and I'm feeling ok.Even though I know it will always eventually pass,sometimes it doesn't feel like it will.That's what I have to hold onto and remind myself when it happens,that it WILL pass.

Sorry for those that go through this too.It's nice to know I'm not alone but it's also something nobody else can truly understand unless they go through it,and it's miserable and is rough.