[RozG]

For anybody who knows what's been going on with me lately...

this stalkers out of the way for now so why is my ptsd and hyper-vigilence not any calmer?

ok so i've had ptsd most of my life but this particular episode is ridiculous.

would somebody like to tell me to grow-up coz now he's out of the way things should be calming down and it's not.

[EJ711]

Roz,

I think you have to consider how long you were in a hypervigilant state this last time. It may take you awhile to transition out of that.

EJ

[RozG]

EJ,

Thank you, I never thought of that. This stuff went on for 10 months round the clock so...you're right when I think of it that way, I maybe just need more time.

Thanks again,
roz

[onlymedid]

(((((((((Roz))))))))) you can't expect your mind and body to stop reacting the way it has for months now just because he is not there anymore.

I would never tell you to "grow-up" because you don't need to grow up, you just really need help with dealing with your fear. I know how it feels to have that fear paralyze you at times and it isn't any fun.

I am here for you, my friend.....



BJ

[RozG]

(((( BJ ))))

You're always such a great help.

You're right that a reaction my mind and body has been used to for months won't disappear overnight...it's just very unsettling and I'm probably making it worse by being too hard on myself.

As for help...I see my doc this week about increasing my Seroquel...and I've just been allocated a care co-ordinator...so things should start to look up soon.

Thank you for always being here and always being so supportive.

Your daily love and hugs BJ...

[gimmeice]

(((((((((((Roz)))))))))))))))

[RozG]

thank you ((((gimmeice))))

[(JD)]

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It's understandable that you don't understand that this statement doesn't apply to PTSD, as the disorder is a tough one to understand.

It has nothing to do with growing up, nor with any thought of how things "should" be.

It's a DISORDER... if it responded like usual emotions, (dissipates after the event) it wouldn't be a DISORDER.

[onlymedid]

You are more than welcome, Rozinator!

I sure hope your doc and meds can help a bit. I know what it's like in the interim. Just try to go easy on yourself and if you need to sleep with all the lights on (I do when I get triggered or scared) then do it.

I always welcome love and hugs!!!



BJ

[RozG]

Sky,

thank you for that reply. i'm always too harsh on myself and whereby i have understanding for others...i just put myself down as being too soft. thank you for reminding me it's a disorder as it is.

[RozG]

(((((((( BJ ))))))))

Thanks again!

and i know things are hard for you just now hence...

[RozG]

[(JD)]

I will be glad to remind you a million times! In fact, it might take more than that...it's also part of the disorder, to not be able to remember that what you are experiencing IS the disorder! It also appears to have the same effect on others, even those who live with someone with PTSD... I guess because so much of it just doesn't seem "rational" or so... and there's no physical evidence by looking at someone with PTSD that they suffer such a handicapp.

[RozG]

Thank You ((Sky))

It does help to have you remind me it's a disorder. My last doc never referred to it that way. She was my doc for over a decade and kept telling me it was a learned response...which made me feel like it was my own weak fault!

Thank you for taking the time again to remind me it's a disorder...that one may take time to sink in though so THANK YOU also for your patience.

[(JD)]

NP and hopefully all the rest who read here that also suffer with PTSD will realize it is a disorder.

What most people consider as "learned" is not what is meant when referring to this phenomena (learned response) itself. It doesn't help healing to be stuck on that term.

When trauma occurs, and PTSD results, it's because the brain has misfiled the event. Because of this trauma, brain chemicals change and change how they file future events too.

The good news is you can retrain the brain to properly "file" the event(s.) The sooner someone receives expert help with any trauma, the better they might heal, and the sooner and easier it will be to heal. (Thus why so many organizations that work with disasters have immediate debriefings.) The longer one takes to begin working on PTSD, the harder it will be partially because each subsequent event, even if not necessarily traumatic, is misfiled and considered trauma or is added to the event.

Think of it like this: before trauma, your brain has all it's files neatly filed away in each proper filing cabinet. Trauma hits and shakes the brain all up and the file cabinets and all the folders and contents become strewn all over the floor of your memory area. Some files are easier to find, pick up, dust off and refile. Others seem to refuse to go where they belong.

Yeah, it's a bear of a disorder.

(Above analogies given for helping others try to picture what types of things occur with PTSD and are not necessarily technically accurate. )

[RozG]

Thank You ((Sky))

the way you explained it like a filing cabinet is easier for me to understand the disorder...hopefully it will help others too.

[onlymedid]

Don't have much to add, but wanted you to know that I am still thinking of you and hope you feel better soon.

Sending you some love and hugs!


BJ

[RozG]

awww thank you (((((((( BJ ))))))))

hope you're good today?

in case you could use some hugs yourself...