wow i feel like such a ZERO

Am dealing with a paper for grad school where one of the topics is about sex abusers. I know somewhere i posted about this but i cat remember - fact it - i keep forgetting EVERYTHING about it! I forget i've gone into the site where the paper is, forget that i try to accomplish reading and end up switching into an alter and closing down the connection. Forget that i even have CLASS and HOMEWORK! Unbelievable!
So fom processing in here where some smart ppl told me to ask for an accommodation, as did T when I told her, and even my mom who just sat with me for 30 min while i processed this - i have finally asked for an accommodation. Granted, the paper is due sunday and I don't know what they will tell me. But i finally asked. I can no longer pretend that this isn't affecting me or causing problems with my schooling.

So yay I accomplished this... and Boo i feel like SUCH a loser that I can't deal even with this stupid paper.
kiya

Maybe by picking a different topic... something similar but not that, and submitting it, that will show that you aren't just trying to get out of doing a paper. You'll probably have to do a paper in it's place any way.

Can you swing something that is just about the kinds of abuse etc? What about a review of the program the Boy Scouts Of America uses to train their leaders and older youth? You can find that at sfcbsa.org and click on training and Youth Protection, if you wish. There's a "slide" presentation with information. IDK it's a bit more than just a report, but then you want special accommodations...and that might fill the spot (extra effort?)

BTW you are not a loser "just because" you can't study this topic. I think you are demanding too much on yourself, and aren't validating your experiences. Regardless of how much you think this should affect you, well, that really doesn't matter. It's that it does.

that is not my topic -the paper is the instructors paper - we are supposed to read it and emmulate it - and work closely with the document to write our own. I am having such struggles in there. I bet i'll have to drop it. I can't even get the site open because the topic name is right there in BOLD across the site. (this is all online.)

If I can help in any way Kiya, just PM.

PS You are NOT a ZERO! Stop that right now young lady!

ahhhh thanks orange blossom
i just ....grrrrrrrrrr. feel so stuuuupid to not be able todeal with this.
i also have to marvel at the brain and how it just goes *click!* sorry wrong number. And shuts down, switches alters, turns off and even completely forgets that i ever went in to that site - forgets all about school.

but it doesn't feel like something i can ask for - you know? like this isn't real - not serious - not worthy of help. sux

Kiya - GOOD for you for asking for the accommodation. What is, is. What happened, happened. It wasn't your fault then, and it's not your fault now, and it's empowering for you to look out for yourself now. And asking for the accommodation is a way of looking out for yourself. If the class ends up being too much, it's OKAY.

I think you're doing great - trying so many new things right now. Be kind to yourself. You deserve it.