[MINIME]

I have been having deams that really bother me the last two night or so. I can call them nightmeres but they are not terryifying. Monday night the dream was I was looking at at least a hundred pages of hospital reports and a docter had written about alot of stuff that happened to me, and there were pictures of the event. I woke up very sad and flooded with stuff. When I finally went back to sleep I had a dream about this cop who was a yucky foster dad who did yucky things and I was collecting evidence against him to finally get him arrested. Last night I had a dream about being a kid and getting kicked out of the foster home for doing something small. Thy kept telling me I wasnt even their kid and they didnt have to put up with it and I was begging them to let me stay because I loved them and they were mean and cold and kept rminding me i wasnt there kid I was an orphan to the living. I am tired. I dont like these emotional dreams. They all are related to stuff thats painful to remember. I did get moved in and out of foster homes alot and yes people told me I wasnt their kid and my heart broke a lot. I am a loving person by nature and I would love any one who showed a tiny bit of kindness like feeding me or not hitting me. You would think my past would have taught me to be tougher and not so loving. I eventually learned how to cover up that loving part and turn meaner. But I really wasnt.

[CedarS]

I hope you get a break soon from those difficult dreams.

[MINIME]

Thanks ceder. I am really tired and I cant kep this up.

[Sannah]

Minime, when I saw you as that darling little child who was so thankful for anyone who showed kindness I started crying! You are a very loving person by nature! You deserved so much better! I am so glad that it didn't break your spirit! I hope you have learned to love and nurture that little girl....

I am also so glad that your dreams aren't too upsetting. I think that your mind just wants to process all this stuff. If you talk about it and process it maybe the dreams will stop and you will be able to move on.

[MINIME]

Sannah....Thanks. That means alot to me. (hug)

[Fuzzybear]

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[MINIME]

((fuzzy)) Thanks