I dont feel real and I am sad

Life Im so sorry. I wish you could feel better. EMDR is a weird therapy. I cant explain it but there is a ton of stuff on line about it. It has helped alot. I hope you keep on trying to find a therapist that can help u. Dont give up. keep trying one more thing and then one more and then just one more and then just one more...and on and on. Talking in therapy is hard for me too. I struggle but it takes a skilled therapist to help u. Thanks for the support and thanks for the acknowledgement of my sig..yea its good too fight back. ((HUG))

Oh I sent u a friend request so now your my friend. K? And friends dont let friends suffer with ptsd needlessly so we will try and find something.

Oh Minime, I would be more than glad to call you my friend. I accepted of course. You cheered me up with your message and post. Really kind and beautiful words, means more than you know. Thank you

P.S. How'd it go yesterday?

Life ((HUG)). Im so glad I could cheer you up. Im glad we are friends. I posted about yesterday so you can hear all about it. Thanks for asking. We need to find you a good T so I can ask you how your helpful therapy went. I have been thinking about you today and was glad to see your post.

I wish I knew more people like you. I'm going to jet over to read your post, glad you told me, didn't know it was there. I need to hear how it all went.

I can't believe someone was thinking of me. Yeah, if such a thing as a good T exists, when I win the lottery, you'll have to let me know of one. Right now, I need therapy from therapy. In the meantime it's a nice surprise and good to know I've got a friend like you out there.

I do understand your feelings cause I am there myself, I was forced to go back on meds just so that I could cope with life in general. It was not all work related, but life also. I am a retired firefighter and could blame most of it on that, but that would be a lie. There are many things in our lives that pass, yet it is up to us to find the ways past them. I fight every day to go ahead. I know that just by you putting up a post, you want to go on and feel human again. We all need to seek comfort in some form. I would suggest that you look within yourself, see what may help you feel better and follow it. By that I mean religion, work, hobbies...any outside distraction to help you find yourself from within. Trust me, we heal ourselves..others guide us to the answers we all seek. Believe in yourlself, follow what makes you feel good about you and go on. Never let life rule you, you rule life. Like I said, Im a retired firefighter and have been through alot, seen even more than many so I keep always looking for answers. The meds, well they are there ONLY to help me sleep, I quit the one med because I did not feel it was the right answer for me. But the other is to help me sleep for right now. But one day soon...that one also will be stopped. I will heal myself but it will take time. Just believe in yourself, seek the truth from within and you will be better..it will just take time..

thanks rdrydr2 thanks for you perspective.Im sorry that you have seen yucky stuff. Thanks for being a firefighter. Thanks for putting your life in danger to save others. I think that is a true hero.

my soul stings as my eyes pour, because that is a hard thing to say. it feels horrable. It hurts so bad and re-occures.