[Shrekterus]

I have a strange (.)(.) phobia - Can't stand for anything to touch them. It makes me want to shoot out of my skin. I couldn't even breast feed my kids because it freaked me out and I certainly can't stand for my husband to get near.

No real memory why I feel this way. I was abused growing up but most of what I remember was verbal such as telling me how pretty I was (at 10) or watching dirty TV while dinner was being served, such as that.

Is this a PTSD issue? I can't state enough how strong my reaction is to that sensation. The funny part, it's only with people I'm familiar with. Back when I was single and first dating, it never bothered me, only once we were together a while or with my kids which is the part I'm most sad about.

Hi Shrekterus,

Have you talked to you T or P-doc about it? We aren't equipped to dx you, but it sounds more like a phobia to me. Maybe you could explore this with your T if you have one, or your primary care physician.

A phobia is defined as:

1. A persistent, abnormal, and irrational fear of a specific thing or situation that compels one to avoid it, despite the awareness and reassurance that it is not dangerous.
2. A strong fear, dislike, or aversion.

[iamtwilight]

there might be more than the verbal stuff. the brain often blocks out things that are too rough for the soul. they will come back later, though. ok, this probably creeps you out. i'm sorry if i'm doing that. i'm not saying this is exactly the case - but it was for me.

like orange blossom said - a therapy is a good aid in diving into this kinda stuff.

twilight

[Shrekterus]

Originally Posted by iamtwilight

like orange blossom said - a therapy is a good aid in diving into this kinda stuff.

twilight

I've talked about it before to a therapist and I got really bad for a while - Again, cannot pinpoint anything upsetting but I would start having horrible racing thoughts, kind of like losing control of my mind. It's hard to explain. I've found if I submerge my head under water, just enough to cover the ears, I'll calm down after a while.

Anyway, since it was making me feel out of control, I've chosen NOT to talk about it any more. Now my marriage is in jeopardy and this is one of his issues - not the boobs only but my "rules" in the bedroom being so strict. REALLY not looking forward to addressing all this again as I now have three little people who depend on me and I can't fathom being like I was when I tried to talk about it before and still being the mother I want to be.