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It was thanksgiving night and I was 9 years old. My baby sister had just died a month ago and i was sad. I was so hungry that night as my mom was starving us again and she had made dinner for my little brothers and not the girls as the girls are evil and she hated us and starved us. She sent me and my sister out to steal her wine and whip cream for my brother. It was dark and cold and no store was open except 7-11. She always had us steal stuff all the time. So we walked to 7-11 and tried but the clerk sent us home. On the way back I was afraid of facing my mom knowing she was going to beat the crap out of us or threaten to kill us. I didnt hear the man running after us and my sister said run and I froze and the guy ran pass me and I said sorry to him for some reason then he turned around and my sister was gone and it was just me. I thought he was a security person from the store and when he started doing stuff to me I thought he was looking for stolen stuff until he picked me up. Alot of stuff happened I cant talk about yet its to yucky. But then he raped me and said alot of stuff to me that i cant talk about yet and stuff. I felt myself floating to a black place and I knew if i went there i woudl stay and I tried not to even though I wanted to. Alo of yucky things happened and one thing i can share is that I knew my mom wouldnt come looking for me. That was a yucky feeling. Later when he left I stood in the ally by our house and saw my mom and my sister and brother she called us liers and stuff and shook me and hurt me. Then she said she was going to call the police I dont know why and she told my sister and I to go home and left us alone and on the way home the guy was there again and he grabbed my sister and I was frozen and couldnt move or talk. I watched him carry her away. Finally i could run and went to my mom and I had a hard time talking and i couldnt make my brain or mouth work and the cops came and was yelling at me to tell them where my sister was and I tired but I couldnt talk and they put me in the back of the cop car and drove me down the ally and we found my sister.

Ok thats all I can do. There is so much more I cant talk about its to much. This is a big step for me so be nice. Im sorry i cant tell more.

((((Minime))))) Gosh I am so sorry for all that you had to go through, it is really sad. I wish I could protect all the children in the world, including you and me, but sometimes people can be so evil. Take care, okay. You are a good person, I know that.

(((MINIME))) safe - I am so sorry this happened to you - I am sorry the man took you and your sister and that your mum didnt believe you

I am sorry that your mother wasnt a mother to you and that instead of protecting you she added to the harm - there is nothing i can do to change tha past when you werent loved and cared for but i can tell you that you are loved and cared for by many people here at PC and that i am one of them. be kind to yourself P7

Minime, you did great. You were so brave to post that part of your story here.

I am so sorry you were so alone. So alone in your life already, and then that awful man did what he did to you... The whole lot of it was so wrong and unfair and too much for any nine year old to bear.

May you find comfort and healing for your pain and your losses, Minime.

OMG Minime! I am sooo incredibly sorry for what you had to go thru. I am sorry your mother didn't protect you the way she should have, the way you deserved to be. But you are incredibly strong and brave for posting this. I hope it was some type of a release for you, even just a little.

Thanks. ((HUG)) You are a great person. ALso you r my friend.

Your post made me cry. Not bad but just that its a sad sad part of my life this thing with my mom. I do feel loved here on Pc and safe and you are also. ((P7))

Thanks ((HUG))

The weird thing is before I started therapy 11 months ago I felt that people wouldnt care that this happened to me and I would rather keep it inside and not have to be subjected to peoples disapointedness In me. I see that know I am slowly reaching out and slowly allowing that part of m to be seen. Its scary and healing and scary.

Mini, I thought later how your mom did call the police. If she wouldn't have that creep wouldn't have gotten caught. I'm glad that you can tell that story and be okay today. I was wodering how you were last night.

He got caught a day or so later after he grabbed another girl who was 10 in front of her dad and took off running with her. He attacked her and the police and this girls dad hunted him down and chased him a long way and then he "accidently" fell of a wall and broke his leg. This girl was a school mate of mine and she is still very traumatized by this. She couldnt testify at his parole thing. My mom had nothing to do with him being caught if she had come out when my sister came home telling her what happened to me she may have been able to save me from him. She didnt it took her atleast 30 or so min to go outside and it was her fault that he attacked my sister she sent us back home alone after he attacked me already....

Oh, I'm sorry..............I misunderstood somehow......

Sannah no sorries lol You are awesome and a good support and you never have to say sorry. ((HUG))

((minime))
I am so sorry that this happened to you and your sister. I'm at a loss for words at how people can be so cruel. Remember that we care about you and are here for you whenever you need us.You are a strong, beautiful person who has survived a lot of awful things. I hope you can find healing.

thanks.((HUG))

I'm so sorry sweetie

Thanks strawberry. I am ok. ((HUG))

((((((((((((( MINIME ))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry for what happened to you and your sister. I also wanted to let you know that I am very proud of you for sharing some of your story with us, I know how difficult it can be, it's a big step towards healing.

(((((minime))))) lots of courage to post that.

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You are so brave to post your story. Very very brave.

~Searching

I want to express to you how so very sorry I am for what you have had to endure in your life. I have three children and seven grandchildren. I go to extremes to protect them and to know that there are people out there that are so cruel as to hurt the innocence of a child, makes me cry. I am so sorry and want you to know there are people that do care and your mother being the way she was, is not because of you.

I would also like to tell you that reading your experience and others, helps me in so many ways. I currently am depressed, my life not so great through most of it. But when I hear of what others have endured it actually makes me stop and think that if this person can make it through so much then there is a chance for me to make it too. So thank you for sharing and helping me get through another day.

/hugs to you and thank you for the courage of posting.