115

this is the second time i've actually sat down while it's quiet and taken this test. the first time i got 125, so ummm yay?

anyway...

first test: 125
main concerns

• general coping, 71
• depression, 75
• anxiety, 78
• self-esteem, 100
• eating disorders, 60

other concerns

• life events, 50
• relationship issues, 50
• borderline traits, 46
• dissociation, 42

everything else was under 40.

second test: 115
main concerns

• general coping, 64
• depression, 72
• anxiety, 74
• self-esteem, 100

other concerns

• relationship issues, 50
• obsessions/compulsions, 44
• post-traumatic stress, 50
• borderline traits, 50

and everything else was 35 or lower.

i guess i'm coping with some things better but some other stuff was just on my mind today.

i see people with scores much higher than this, which makes me feel like i'm just being stupid and that i'm just wanting attention. i guess a lot of it is that, but...

i feel so dumb, that my general coping score was so bad. i should be better, i have kids and stuff to take care of all the time, i shouldn't be unable to cope with life. it pisses me off a little.

the obsessions/compulsions score probably shouldn't be that high. i remember one of the questions i just picked something and moved on, pretty sure it was something about performing certain rituals, which i don't. i obsess, but i'm not that compulsive about anything but making sure the bills get paid, haha...

Please don't be so hard on yourself. We all have some issues. And, as you say, even misreading/misunderstanding/ or for whatever reasons, answering a question in a way that's not true can affect the results.

How ARE you coping in real life? Are these symptoms negatively affecting your life or the lives of others? Would your life be better if you had treatment for at least some of them? I think these types of questions are the ones you best need to answer.

i have therapy next week. i know that my problems are negatively affecting my husband and kids. my inability to cope with the dreams i had to give up when we started this family (five years ahead of schedule pretty much, haha) is causing me to be bitter and angry. it's not that i didn't want a family eventually, but if i could have waited life for my husband and kids could have been so much better. but i made a stupid mistake, i can't really blame my husband for it, and we got thrown into this marriage and these kids and until now it's like we haven't had any money or free time. another eighteen years is a long time to wait before we finally get to just be husband and wife. i just wish we could have waited. i can't seem to get over that feeling that if we'd waited, we'd be happier, and maybe i wouldn't be so unable to cope with how disappointed i am in myself.