[sugahorse1]

I was on 300mg. Took my last one Sat AM, so I've now done Sun AM and Mon AM without. Not sure if I'm supposed to expect anything.
Not sure why I've done it, or how long I'll be ok for...
Oh well - it's one of those things we do, hey?!

Why are you playing with your meds Sugahorse? This could set off a crisis for you. Really a bad idea. Get back on the meds. Don't mess with them without talking to your doctor about it first. Don't do this to yourself. You are asking for problems. Why?

[sugahorse1]

Because it's one thing I actually can decide on!?! I don't know.
I guess I'm also questioning how effective they really are for me? Maybe I am looking for trouble. Maybe I'm testing myself. Or questioning whether there is something wrong with me

Perhaps you need to stay on the meds until you have a chance to discuss these kinds of things with the doctor who prescribed them. It just really sounds self-destructive right now. Why not talk this over with the experts instead of tempting the fates.

[cybermember]

I have to agree with farmergirl. Going cold-turkey is really not a good idea. Not only will you feel the effects of withdrawal you may relapse into a depression. If you want to quit Wellbutrin, please do so under the guidance of your pdoc and not on your own. Just sayin'.

I don't know what's going on but if you aren't feeling any... what's the pharma industry term... "discontinuation syndrome", well if you aren't feeling it after two days then you may not have any problem with that. I don't know what the half-life of Wellbutrin is but I'm guessing this isn't an SSRI.
Best of luck to you... I hope this turns out well

[sugahorse1]

It isn't an SSRI - the withdrawals there are horrible.
No - I don't know what's gotten into me...

[sugahorse1]

I am a stupid f*ing idiot!!!!

[sugahorse1]

Don't do it. Especially if your support structure is not in place

So, don't call yourself names; that won't help the situation. Just give your doc a call and get instructions for getting back on your meds. It's okay. You are only a few days into this. It shouldn't take too long to get things back in line. Be gentle with yourself, okay?

[sugahorse1]

Just took a 300mg again this morning

[eskielover]

Sugahorse.....you know what you are doing when you do things like that, especially when you are already in a bad place & not feeling good to start with.....then you go off the meds.......

You are right....think you are pleading for help or more like just someone to care.....but you know that can't be solved by going off your meds especially when you already know you are in a bad place. You definitely need to get back into therapy where you can REALLY work on your issues.....get those resolved & maybe you won't need the level of medication that you do now......but you know that going off your meds & self-medicating on others won't get you into a better place.....therapy to work on yourself & learn the skills you are having a problem with & learning how to deal with your co-dependency issues & working on the right combination of meds with your pdoc is about the only thing that is really going to help you in reality.

You know the right thing to do.....you just need to keep reminding yourself & working on doing it.

I'm proud of you for going back on your meds. Any possibility of getting in to see that therapist earlier than you thought? Might call to let her know you are in a crisis. Perhaps she can find a way to get you in or at least touch base via phone.

[sugahorse1]

I haven't really seen this T in 4 years. Doubt she'll remember me; at first anyway.
48 hours to go til I see her. Just have to survive that

[sugahorse1]

Yes Eskie, your answer is very logical. My pain just clouds any hope of anything logical right now.
I'll do my best to do what I know is right

So what can you do for the next 48 hours to get through? Put the pills (benzos) away. Get out of the house. Go see a movie. Go see two movies. Go for a few long walks. Ask a friend out for lunch/dinner. As much as it goes against the grain when your depressed, make yourself stay as much among people as possible. Even if you aren't personally socializing with them, just being in the vicinity of other people can keep you safe. You can do this.

[eskielover]

Yes, destractions & contributing to others is one of the greatest ways of getting through distressed times.....those are DBT skills that are basically just common sense even though they aren't easy......but putting away all the things that are in your life to harm you is definitely important also.....the benzos, the alcohol that counteracts any meds you take (it's a depressant & you definitely DON'T need that at this point either).

If all else fails.....get as many DVD's as you like & just keep watching them on your computer if nothing else.....it's one of my best ways of getting through bad times because my mind gets focused on the movie & can't think about myself......& I find that humorous DVD's are the best when I'm in a crappy mood....or even the irritated mood I am in now due to dealing with an idiot stbxh.

Getting together with others may not always be possible because then again, it makes us dependent on others being available & we really do need to put into place things that we can do for ourselves.......even cleaning the walls off the house.....helps at times or cooking your favorite food (not the easiest thing for me to do....but it does help to eat something that makes me feel good even with the anorexia issues I have when stress hits me.

You can make it & you will do ok.......at least one thing good, you do have PC people to help you be accountable......sometimes that's all we have to work with....but it's definitely better than nothing.

[sugahorse1]

Thank you Eskie