[Darlene]

Well I've been on Lexapro now for 4 weeks.. My depression is better but I still can't get anything done.
I'm anxious and doudt every move I make..I didn't
ask to be sexually abused. The worst thing is not having a brain that works. God I put myself through
4years of college for what to be a waitress. I'm
sick of lliving this way. And then there are those people
like Oprah that go through abuse and their minds work
great... Whats the difference. Anyway I'll give this
Lexapro another 2 weeks and If a miricle doesn't happen
screw it I'm going back on Serzone, despite the
dangers. I'm a smart person who is trapped in her own mind, reduced to doing jobs that anyone can
do using moter skills . Its not fair. Why must we
struggle to just feel partially ok. If I sound angry I
am. I can't control this by using my will so it ticks me
off. Feedback appriciated. Darlene

[(JD)]

Ok... you asked for feedback... but it sounds like you made up your mind...

The Lexapro began working as soon as you began it, and now that it has finally built up to a level where you sense some improvement, you want to give up? Please don't. Continue with the lexapro and you will continue to improve, I'm sure, for a while...

I have terrible reactions to these meds, yet with the lexapro I was able to take it for a few years... the serzone nearly killed me at half the lowest dose ONCE.

Hang in there , ok?

[MLuckycharm76]

Hi Darlene. Welcome. I'm new here too.You are my first respond. I have to start out by saying no matter what drugs are working for you It is comendable that even w/ a college degree you are able to be humble and maintain some degree of fruitful employment. You are an inspiration. Give yourself a BIG HUG. I also was sexually abused and know the devestation and innability to live a Happy life it creates. About the Lexapro I can't personally speak about the drug but can only encourage you to at least give it a couple more weeks or even try to figure out if the time of day you take it has any effect on your enrgy and desire to move. I have experienced that issue myself with Zyprexa. It worked very well but my energy during the day was greatly influenced by when I took it. This took me 3 years to figure out. The big difference between people like Operah and us is access to resources and extensive if not expensive support systems and treatments. Sorry if this was long. I pray God provides us the strength and wisdom to simply make it through 1 more minute, then another. Keep in mind looking at life in more managable increments of time. Try getting through the next minute. Later an hour and so forth.
I hope I have helped some. Please let me know if it was too long!