[Kiya]

Which means prolly working toward new good stuff. T and I trying to figure out how to make sessions more useful (when both are afraid of triggering the DID system into unsafe things). T was clear this was not my fault and nothing wrong with me, but that she was a bad T (Yipes!) Brought up tears from lils who translated that as "Therapy's not going well, we're no good, T gonna leave us, kick us out". But, was able to say the lil's fears (giving myself a gold star here) and hear from T that she is not trying to get rid of us *phew!*. I always talk about PC and what I've learned here. T is wanting me to come up with things that will help the system - T also asked what this place was again, so i actually said the name psychcentral.com which she repeated.... *looks around cautiously*
Anyway... I am gonna work harder at being a good client and doing my homework and looking for solutions.

[Perna]

That sounds great, Kiya! I read a couple gold stars in there!

((((((((((((((((((((kiya))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Sounds like a hard session, but one with a lot of growth and potential for growth. TOTAL gold star for littles speaking up about their fear!! Yay!

T sounds so committed to you and your healing. That is a happy thing.

[thelionkinglives]

Originally Posted by Kiya

Which means prolly working toward new good stuff. T and I trying to figure out how to make sessions more useful (when both are afraid of triggering the DID system into unsafe things). T was clear this was not my fault and nothing wrong with me, but that she was a bad T (Yipes!) Brought up tears from lils who translated that as "Therapy's not going well, we're no good, T gonna leave us, kick us out". But, was able to say the lil's fears (giving myself a gold star here) and hear from T that she is not trying to get rid of us *phew!*. I always talk about PC and what I've learned here. T is wanting me to come up with things that will help the system - T also asked what this place was again, so i actually said the name psychcentral.com which she repeated.... *looks around cautiously*
Anyway... I am gonna work harder at being a good client and doing my homework and looking for solutions.

(((((Kiya))) Sounds like your heading the right direction...sometimes it's hell trying to get to heaven

LK

[chaotic13]

Kiya,
I'm sure your a good client. Sound to me like your T was telling you this in order to collaborate with you on creating a safer place for you. I would view this as you T showing you respect not trying to get rid of you.

[MissCharlotte]

((Kiya))

I went through a very very very very long time of constant triggering in session. What worked for me were a few things: First, I knew I had to take everything very extremely slow. I realized that some sessions it was okay to just talk about light things because what was happening was all parts of me were getting to know T and trust him. Second, T had to be super super super consistent. No EMDR, no challenging me, no special things, just talk talk talk. This also helped all parts of me to learn to trust and feel safe in T's room. Finally, I had to begin to take risks like you did today, telling T when I didn't feel safe, and when I thought he was throwing me out, etc. In fact, I'm still working on some of that stuff.

Keep working, it really sounds like you are making progress.

[Kiya]

Thanks Perna =) I had to re-read to see!

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by treehouse

((((((((((((((((((((kiya))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Sounds like a hard session, but one with a lot of growth and potential for growth. TOTAL gold star for littles speaking up about their fear!! Yay!

T sounds so committed to you and your healing. That is a happy thing.

Thanks Treehouse! Yes, T is committed. I know that with all my heart. To all her patients. In fact, there's a gala event Friday night as a fundraiser for her Mental Health fund for ppl with no money for therapy (like me). I am volunteering at the event for it.

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by chaotic13

Kiya,
I'm sure your a good client. Sound to me like your T was telling you this in order to collaborate with you on creating a safer place for you. I would view this as you T showing you respect not trying to get rid of you.

Yes - i agree. It was hard to get all the parts to believe that. But it sure helped to hear her actually say those words "I am not trying to get rid of you". It did sound like we're in this for the long haul and i am very grateful for that. I am sure it is extrememly challenging to work with me (my system)... perhaps just as frustrating ( i think i heard her speak of frustration) as my working with my "life skills" population of kids still learning 1-10 and basic spelling and i want SO MUCH for them to be able to read and do math and cope with life and do well. Actually that is a really good analogy for me to hold. And to see the patience that T uses in working with me - to how I work with my life skills kids.
Thanks chaotic!

[Kiya]

Thanks MissC! I copied your post in what I am working on for T - all this helps her and is what she asked me to do (find out what worked for others). I will start a compilation for T. I need to get my DID sourcebook back from her too, I think there were tips in there.
((((((Miss)))))

Originally Posted by MissCharlotte

((Kiya))

I went through a very very very very long time of constant triggering in session. What worked for me were a few things: First, I knew I had to take everything very extremely slow. I realized that some sessions it was okay to just talk about light things because what was happening was all parts of me were getting to know T and trust him. Second, T had to be super super super consistent. No EMDR, no challenging me, no special things, just talk talk talk. This also helped all parts of me to learn to trust and feel safe in T's room. Finally, I had to begin to take risks like you did today, telling T when I didn't feel safe, and when I thought he was throwing me out, etc. In fact, I'm still working on some of that stuff.

Keep working, it really sounds like you are making progress.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by Kiya

but that she was a bad T (Yipes!) Brought up tears from lils who translated that as "Therapy's not going well, we're no good, T gonna leave us, kick us out". But, was able to say the lil's fears (giving myself a gold star here) and hear from T that she is not trying to get rid of us *phew!*.

Very Good Work Kiya!

[Cthomas]

Originally Posted by Kiya

Thanks MissC! I copied your post in what I am working on for T - all this helps her and is what she asked me to do (find out what worked for others). I will start a compilation for T. I need to get my DID sourcebook back from her too, I think there were tips in there.
((((((Miss)))))

Hey kiya, glad to see you around! I havent been here much lately too! Sounds like you are making progress!

Pm me when you can!

Take care

Colleen