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Originally Posted by treehouse

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I feel like I'm having a hard time getting support here recently. Probably asking for too much and not giving enough.

I just WANT to give up, but I'll probably swing the other way and try harder.

Sorry.

TH, I read your post but didnt have time to reply. I agree its hard when we want that instant response and we feel if we dont get it then it must be something personally directed at us. I hope T gets in touch with you shortly and I'm sure plenty of people here wish to give you support, its hard for us all.

[sittingatwatersedge]

i can almost never get on PC on the weekends, have to wait till I can take a break during the week.

trust IS hard, little treehouse. I search for words of reassurance for you because I know some of your pain, but I am such an untrusting you know what (that word you told me not to use about myself) that I don't feel I have much room to talk.

I know you to be a very caring person (very!) and deep down, you probably know that yr T isn't punishing you. he may be doing a sort of triage, you know? to catch up - and IF that is the case and IF you aren't contacted immediately it is far from punishment, it's honor and high regard.

please take this, from SAWE who loves you

[emilyjeanne]

I understand how you feel. I rarely post my own issues/questions because people generally don't reply. It makes me feel that my problems are not as important as others.

I want you to know that I do read your posts and even if I don't reply I get what you are saying.

[MINIME]

I feel the same sometimes. I read ur post i am just so sad now i have no energy

[hangingon]

I'm sorry Tree,
I haven't been deliberately avoiding you either. I have been totally drained in dealing with school and trying to decide what to do as far as therapy.

Didn't mean to make you feel left out

I hope everything goes well for you when you return to your T.

[searchingmysoul]

(((((((sweet tree))))))

I am thinking of you. What you share of yourself is so inspiring. Your compassion and heart is so fully visible in what you offer to others.

I hope that you get the care and comfort you deserve.

((((((((treehouse))))))))

i'm sorry you are missing t so much and not getting enough responses. you are such a treasure. t will be back tomorrow, yea! i tend to get caught up in people's posts and then move on to the next one so sometimes am not so consistent in responding long-term or am just too wiped out to say anything but i always read your threads and care.

[lifelesstraveled]

(((((((treehouse)))))))))))

I read your thread earlier(actually the portion mouse quoted so I am not sure what came before or after or if there was anything else to the thread) and didn't have time to reply.

Im sorry you are not feeling very supported here. You are VERY much cared for here. Please do not feel like people don't care. I care about you and so does everyone else

You have offered me and everyone at PC so much support and you deserve the same---you are not asking for too much at all. My PM is always available if you need to talk

[MissCharlotte]

(((((((((((treehouse))))))))))))

What do you need? We are here!

I'm always just a PM away, Tree.

[sunrise]

Ahh, TH, I am sorry you are not feeling supported. I hope your T comes back soon. I often don't go on PC until the evening, which in my time zone is past bedtime for many here. So I often come to posts a half day after they were made. And I think the psychotherapy forum on PC has become much more popular in the last 6 months or so. Has anyone else noticed that? It's hard to give the many new threads a look anymore like I used to. Sometimes a thread is almost off the page before I have time to even notice it exists. The price of the PT forum's success!

[chaotic13]

Treehouse, sorry if I missed your thread. I've only been popping in and out at this point. I'm having trouble keeping up with the posts. I've been out of town and restricting my PC access. My doctoral work MUST get done this summer.

Can you find some little ways to distract yourself while your T is a way. When I am feeling lost and wanting to connect with my T I've tried to distract myself with positive activities.

One thing I am doing now is a illustrated discovery journal. I got the idea from Sara Ban Breathenach's Something More book. I've made this activity a totally positive reflective activity where I search and explore who I am. It is slowly replacing the need to email my T at 3 am. It give my mind someting to focus on the leaves me feeling powerful and grateful, not empty and scared.

Hope you can find an activity that can keep your mind busy for a while.

(((TH)))

Thanks (((((((((((((((((PC Friends)))))))))))))))))))

I actually see T today at noon, unless a possible dr appt with my mom interferes (which would send me right over the edge, so fingers crossed...).

I did talk to T yesterday in the late morning. I had called him at 8am, needing his help with something with my mom, and he didn't call me back until 11 or so. Normally, that wouldn't be a big deal, but after waiting so long to talk to him, I suspected I was low on the "clients to call back" list and my feelings were hurt. I left another weepy (oy!) message at 10:45 and then he called me back at 11. I told him that it didn't feel fair that I was so independent while he was gone and he was probably calling all of the people back who left tons of messages while he was on vacation- like i was being punished for not calling. I told him I felt like *I* should get called FIRST.

He told me with a smile in his voice "You ARE the first". That took the wind out of my sails lol. We talked a little and I feel safe again about going today.

thanks for the support - I really do appreciate it

awwwww, You were first! Glad you have your T back, no wonder you like him so much, he sounds wonderful!

[MINIME]

Lol i tell my t's i am thier favorite client and therfore they must act accordingly. They laugh.

[peaches100]

((((Treehouse)))))

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. We all care about you so much here. I'm sorry if sometimes our warmth and concern don't come through in the form of replies. (If only we could get a warm fuzzy everytime somebody thinks of us, wouldn't that be great?) Hope you feel better soon.