last two sessions

I have the first of my last two sessions tomorrow. The second one on Wednesday, then I move on Thursday. I was feeling really stressed out but now I feel numb. I feel like there is too much to do and not enough time. I feel like I'm being pulled in a dozen different directions just because some of the things can't get packed until the night I leave which means I have to know exactly how much room stuff will take up.

I don't want to leave my T. I want her to jump in my suitcase and come with me. I want to ask my T if I come back if I can see her again, but I'm really scared. I'm scared that she will say no and then I will feel all alone. I don't want to feel alone... I don't want to have to go through the process of trusting someone again. My T and I have worked so hard, I don't know if i can go through it all again.

Years ago I was very attached to my therapist whom I had been seeing for four years through very intense therapy and difficult circumstances. I moved far away from him and it was very, very difficult for a while. But I could still call him and did once in a while. I can remember sitting in a new therapist's waiting room crying because I wanted to see my old therapist and was so homesick. But eventually I got through it. I am in the process right now of finding a new therapist and am very discouraged. Saw one today that couldn't keep his eyes open, or so it appeared. Had his eyes closed most of the time, unless that's his style. But that's not for me. So head up. Concentrate on getting moved, then start calling around when you're ready. You CAN do this!

((((((((((((((((((googley))))))))))))))))

What a stressful and scary week for you. I don't have a lot of words right now, but I am sending lots and lots of

Try not to put too much pressure on yourself about these sessions with T. Go, and be with her, and know that she cares about you and you've done so much good work together.

((((((googley)))))) I agree with what Treehouse said. All you can do is just go in and be with her and go with the flow. I'm very sorry that you have to leave her, when you've worked so hard. I hope you'll find someone who you can connect with and trust as much as you do her. Good luck with these sessions, as well as the move on Thursday. I hope it goes well