:( if u don't know what to say hug me! :(

i hope your T responds soon - maybe she has comuter or internet probs?

keeping my fingers crossed for a speedy reply for you

i don't know why she hasn't replied. She stil hasn't. I'm sure it can be sorted out. I'm just not sure how. T doesn't call the dissociative parts alters. Pdoc does. So I really don't know how to explain it to T. It was written as a letter to T from the alter Sapphire. She isn't always angry she is over protective and a freedom fighter. She wants me to feel protected from harm and feel free from burden of stress. T wouldn't understand what sapphire does for me. Crystal

hang in there crystalrose.

when do you next see T????

try to keep busy till you hear from her im sure she will get back to you or have a reason why not

thanks i'l try to do other things and not check if she has replied til tomorrow. She checks it friday and monday. So tomorrow is monday. Maybe she just forgot to check it friday even though she said she would. I'm going to stop talking about it now. For now anyway.

Can you make another entry in the blog from your current point of view? Then T will know it was not "you" who wrote the first entry. Even if you and she don't talk about alters, she is a T, so she knows what they are and would definitely understand about them. This might open up a good line of therapy if you have been reluctant to share with her so far that you have alters.

I hope you get a response. I bet T is just thinking about how to respond to the angry part, so that she doesn't make things worse for Sapphire. I can tell the anxiety about the response is really bothering you. Try not to worry about it. There isn't anything you can do about it right now and you can't make her read it or respond. Just try to keep yourself occupied and safe!

CR- sorry, I hate waiting for a response, especially when you have voiced something out side of the comfort zone. Just know that Ts can handle negative feedback much better than most other people. Your T will work with you to improve things.

well still no reply. But maybe T just has better things to do than reply to my rambling rant and rave at her. I don't care as long as she replies before the next session. Still don't know if i will go

Crystalrose,

I just wanted to say if you are feeling upset that your T has not commented on your blog like she had said she would, don't just ignore these feelings. I like to tell myself that I don't want or need a response from my T to important things that I have shared via email. But when I am being honest with myself sometimes parts of me get really upset, scared, and all kind of other feeling that I don't even really get.

I'm not saying you have to spend therapy time discussing all these feelings or that you have to dwell on them or even understand them. I just saying, acknowledge them and don't immediately dismiss them. I'm currently doing really well (I think) but last week I was struggling with something, sent my T an email that she didn't immediately reply to, and the her delayed respond along with the orginal issue sent me into a tailspin for a few days. As I look back now, the feeling and emotions that surfaced were important for me to look at. I have somr things to work on next week when I go back for my actual T session.

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((((((((Crystalrose))))))))) I hope you get a reply soon

T hasn't replied yet. Don't think she is going to. Think i'l have go to the session tomorrow to sort this stuff out. Don't know how to explain that it was an angry alter saying what i was too afraid to.

Hi crystalrose. I hope the session with your t goes well.

Crystalrose
I have been in similar place several times; my T is not inclined to reply except in person and that means I have to wait.
I think she wants the waiting period for me, so I will be more calm and will have had time to process my feelings that prompted the outcry - and also time for herself, to consider all possible aspects.
Also, T is a very personal type, she wants to do things one on one. I have never been able to change it, maybe I should just go with it.
Please take care of yourself and see T with as much calm as you can (I will go with you, in fact you'd better wear something with several pockets because we tend to bunch up on ya ).

i hate me. Using phone to post. In therapy right now. Forgot to bring big pockets for all the people to come. Faith here by the way. I'm sacred. Don't want to be here anymore. . She is trying to talk to me.

Hi crystalrose. I'm here and listening. I know it's scary. Can you try to stay with her in the present moment so you can hear what she's saying? Or do you have an alter that usually does therapy sessions?

that was a waste of time i hardly remember the session. I think I was splitting lots. seemed like a short session but it actually went for an hour and a half.

so did she say anything about out of session contact????

hope you are well

(((((((((((((( dear CR )))))))))))))))

do you know what a parapraxis is? also known as "freudian slip". You really are sacred, my dear, and that is no lie. If you can hang onto that, sooner or later you will find some peace.

We PC folk don't need pockets to come with you, we are with you in spirit. I hope your session went OK and that you are more calm now. get some good rest

yeah she didn't reply to blog because she didn't read it. She doesn't want to use the blog anymore which i'm kinda hurt about. She explained why but i was so spaced out i don't remember why. I don't usually have an alter that goes to therapy for me. I usually go and alters only come out when there is too much stress going on or too much to cope wit. . I sometimes remember what happens when the alters are out but i don't remember everything. . That freudian slip is quite true thankyou for noticing it. I thought about pc while i was in there thats why i went on here on my phone. T told me to put the phone away.