What do you say.....?

I saw a therapist and had no idea what to say to her (I know it sounds silly) but I really didnt !

She said how you doing ? And as I was doing ok that's what I said to her. I told her things was great as that particular week I was flying high.

I felt very positive about things and really felt silly sitting there discussing my non problems.

I couldn't remember anything bad ! So as I am in the UK I was 'let go' so another more needy person can have my slot.

Now I find I need to talk to someone but have to wait 18 months to see her again by which time I will either be dead or flying high again who knows ?

So do I write things down just in case I am fine and talk about the bad times which I cant see when I am fine ? I feel so positive about things when I am well I really don't think I will become ill again, I even reduce meds (silly again I know) but at the time it seems like a good idea and nothing will convince me otherwise!

I am BPD just so you know.

I love your signature on your post. Loving the comment about what asking your body, but also your dog is adorable!!

Okay.... enough of that. LOL......

18 month waiting list? Goodness! Is there a shortage of T's where you are located?
How long and how often had you been seeing your T before you were let go? I ask because I don't see how 1 session, 1 good week, or even 2 in a row makes you all better. Are you able to contact your T when things are bad? Meaning, lets say today is just a really bad day and you are really struggling, can you call her to talk at all?

I think you're doing the right thing as far as journaling. Maybe having that on hand in future sessions will help you address issues that seem to trouble you the most. However, reducing your meds probably isn't a good thing unless your doctor has encouraged you to do so. Do you cut back on your meds often? Do you think that could be partially contributing to your highs and lows?

((((((((( Tishie ))))))))))

Go back to your GP and let him/her know what happened. Usually, once you have been in the system, you shouldn't have to wait 18 months to get back into it.

I think the writing things down is a great idea!

I know I have sometimes struggled with fear of getting better, fear that if I go in to see T & everything is great too often she'll tell me I don't need to be there any more. So I can definitely understand where you're coming from. It's hard to think of the bad times when we're feeling good, we just want to keep feeling good dammit!

Tishie, how long had you been seeing this T? It seems really premature and abrupt to terminate someone just because they have one good session. Did she forget about other "not good" sessions you had had before? Is she an inexperienced therapist? I hope you can do what Pegasus suggested and call to get this straightened out.