[jexa]

I see my T tonight and I am kind of scared. I cut off all my hair this week. My hair was pretty long, almost halfway down my back, and now it is all gone. I had my hair cut into a pixie cut. It's hard to explain why I did that.. I didn't tell her I was planning to do that (nor was I planning on it -- it was on impulse). I don't want to talk about why because it's going to take out the magic. Does that make sense?

Also I have been feeling very awake and aware these past two days, and I don't want to talk about that, either, because I'm afraid I'll jinx it if I try to explain it.. Again I feel like words are going to take out the magic, like this state of mind is so fragile it won't hold up under the scrutiny of language.

I don't know what I'm going to say in session tonight, and she's going to want to know so much. I've never felt this way before a session.. I always have something I want to talk about.. but what's going on right now doesn't have a strong enough foundation for words. Does anyone know what I mean?

[sittingatwatersedge]

maybe you could talk about the magic, and the worry about taking it out. Might help you to understand it better (will surely help T to understand it better).

Even if you don't touch on those things, you will do fine - whatever I plan before I go, I never get it all out, and we always end up in areas I hadn't expected to go into (sort of good news/bad news I guess). If you are like me, the scared feeling will go away a lot as soon as you see T's face.

BTW your hair looks cute like that!

jexa I bet your hair looks great! This summer, I cut my hair into a pixie cut - when T saw it, she said, "It looks great! What did it used to look like?" I don't even think we talked about why I cut it - so you don't have to talk about that with your T if you don't want to.

And instead of talking about the awake and aware feeling, why not just go with that feeling in the session, and use it to enhance whatever else you discuss with T? You never know, some really good insight could come out of that!

Good luck, I'm sure it will be a great session!

[pinkcorr]

Good luck with your session tonight. I don't think I can add anymore to what people have already replied.

x x x x

[jexa]

Thanks everyone!! My session with T actually went REALLY well -- she did want to know about the hair, but when I didn't really talk about it, she dropped the subject and I was able to use the awake and aware feeling to be more "present" than usual in today's session.

My heart was pounding before session but SAWE -- you were right -- as soon as I saw T's face I was just fine! There was nothing to be scared of.