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Hi Googley,
I know exactly what you mean here. I feel that way too. Please know that there are people thinking about you. Asking for help is hard. But keep doing it. You deserve everything good. You deserve to feel better.
I can't even imagine studying or being in school right now. I know what you are doing is difficult. Please give yourself credit for even going to class and try to be understanding if you don't do as well as you wanted. It's like "taking care of yourself" is a class that needs your utmost attention too. A not-so-great grade says nothing about you as a person, and nothing about what you might really understand about the subject... I myself was in the middle of a chemistry class when I had a major breakdown. Thing is, I loved the material. I love chemistry ... I love the elements and how they all fit together. But I wanted to come down hard on myself because I didn't do well on my exam. (How could I when I was going through a major mental breakdown?) I ended up withdrawing... I will go back to it later. Going to class is hard without dealing with anxiety and depression and I am in admiration that you are doing it anyway.