[zooropa]

I just miss my T. I haven't talked to her since Tuesday. That's a long time for me!

I know if anyone understands, it will be you guys. I want to call her or email or text her, just to hear her voice, just to know she's still there. But I don't have a reason to call, I don't have anything going on that I need her help with. I just have to get through this and KNOW that she's still there, and I will see her on Monday.

I'm just sad and lonely and....I just miss my T.

[jexa]

[granite1]

monday will come soonand i bet you T will be happy to see ya

[WePow]

(((((( Zoo )))))) Monday will come soon. You will see. :-)

[googley]

(((((Zoo)))))

You are so strong. You are doing so great with waiting to see her. I know it is hard to wait and know that she will be there. But remember all the times she has been there in the past for you.

Could you call and just listen to her voicemail message to hear her voice and hang up before the message part starts? Then you could hear her voice without actually contacting her.

[zooropa]

thanks you guys, I knew you would understand.
googley, I've thought of doing that but I'm afraid she would answer, and then I'd be like...uh...hi?

I would love to call her just to hear her voice. I know she is still there and if I needed her I could call and she'd be there, but part of me is just so needy and sad and scared and....well, it's only a couple days now until T time.

[rainbow8]

I understand. I want to see my T so badly right now too. Monday is almost here!

Bt used to tell me that I could call and tell her I just wanted to hear her voice, but I was always too embarrassed to do that, so I found something legitimate to ask or tell her. I thought it was legitimate, but that's when she started telling me I was manipulating her, so in hindsight, it would have been better to come right out and tell her I just wanted to hear her voice. I think T wouldn't be upset if you said that. If I felt I had to call Kt, I would be honest and tell her that. Ts like it when we're honest with them.

[zooropa]

that's true, rainbow. It's scary to me to think of admitting to my T that I just wanted to make sure she was still there, but doing so would take me another step along my journey. Maybe someday I'll be brave enough to do that...

[WePow]

((((( zoo )))))))) Can you do something with artwork today to show T how you are feeling about things? Reading and thinking about your post just inspired me to do exactly that. There are some serious abandonment issues I need to face head on with T this Wed in session. And I am terrified of it. I am so afraid of that "needing" feeling I have when feelings come up and I want T but T is not sitting there. So learning how to do other coping things is better. I do like the look on T's face when I show him my therapy feeling artwork - he tends to know when it is real stuff and not just shallow stuff. And his eyes light up like he is honestly proud of me for showing my feelings to him. I think that I relish that response from T because I never got that from my parents. They just expected me to be what they wanted even though they made it very hard for me to be who I was. Hope that makes sense and helps you a little maybe?