[sittingatwatersedge]

WePow recently wrote >> I would reather deal with T with ANYTHING BUT the deepest part of the pain.

Wow, this is me too, even to the point of telling myself that I don't know where it really is - but surely, even if only unconsciously, I do..

Avoidance is endless.... T is committed and strong in spirit but she WILL be retiring one day. We two do not have an infinite amount of time, and I feel an urgency to move into it.

If I ask T to put her finger right on the deepest pain, will she do that? After 2.5 yrs working with me, I know she could do this.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

WePow recently wrote >> I would reather deal with T with ANYTHING BUT the deepest part of the pain.

Wow, this is me too, even to the point of telling myself that I don't know where it really is - but surely, even if only unconsciously, I do..

Avoidance is endless.... T is committed and strong in spirit but she WILL be retiring one day. We two do not have an infinite amount of time, and I feel an urgency to move into it.

If I ask T to put her finger right on the deepest pain, will she do that? After 2.5 yrs working with me, I know she could do this.

Perhaps T could do it, but will she? I know that my T allows me the space I need to move at my own pace...and doesn't fully know what's impacted me and what hasn't....and I also know that when I saw a pdoc for the first time, he went straight to the core pain - and I never went back.

So, if you feel safe enough and your T is willing and able, perhaps that would help you move through it...but I'm wondering if it's possible for it to come from T rather than you. Maybe your T can help guide you to discovering it though....

Curious to know how this turns out...Please post an update!

[granite1]

wow a scary thing to be thinking of doing i would love to know how things are going

(((((((((((((((sawe)))))))))))))))))

Can you tell T that you are ready to move into that pain, but that you are scared and need her help??

T and I spent a long time touching the pain and moving away from it. I needed to do that, I think, to see that I could be in that pain and survive it.

Last fall, T said something that sort of pushed me to the edge of the cliff, and finally, I just let myself fall...and T was there to catch me and to help me find my footing again. It wasn't easy or quick, and it hurt like hell. I wasn't sure it would even be worth it...but it WAS worth it, because now, for the first time, I have moments where I feel at peace. Finally.

It's okay to ask T for help.

to you.