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It is really hard. The possibility that I might get to see my old T again keeps pulling at me. I get really excited about the possibility, but then I remember that there may not be a time that works for both of us and then it crashes again.

I'm also realizing how much the T I have been seeing really hasn't worked for getting any in depth work done. We didn't really mesh well. And just how unsafe I was feeling with her. How demanding she seemed and how it made me scared. That it felt like she blamed me for not being able to trust her. And that just made me even more uncomfortable.

I still have two more sessions and I feel like I don't know if I want to go. She reminds me so much of a clinical supervisor who I had that I wasn't able to work with very well (very complicated situation). I just feel really alone. But also embarrassed because I don't think that being on my own should make me feel this bad.

Do you know when your old T will get back to you about resuming your therapy with her? If it's going to be soon, maybe you don't need to see this T anymore. But, even though it didn't work out so well, it would probably be best to at least go once to tie things up. I hope you hear from your old T soon!!!!

My old T called but I couldn't answer the phone. So I am waiting for her to call back. I'm hoping I'll hear from her on Monday or Tuesday. But I can't be sure.

(((((googley))))) I hope you hear back from her and that it's good news and you can not see the new T anymore. It doesn't seem like it's been very helpful. At all.

(((((((((googley)))))))))

I think that if Old T is able to start seeing you, there's no reason to go back to the New T. She just didn't sound like a good fit, at all.

Googley let us know how the conversation with your old T goes/went!

These are very important things to talk about with her. It seems that she is triggering you and triggers are always important to talk about.