goodbye letter to T

That's a beautiful letter!

Thanks guys so much! Today has been a better day but I am dreading tomorrow. I mean. Oh my God.

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow is goodbye.

You know, it doesn't seem real. It doesn't seem like this is happening.

I see the other T on Wednesday.

FZ I agree that this will likely be cosmic justice for each of them. I know how difficult my sister is to live with, and I know that my ex is going to get passive aggressive... then there will be tension that will build and build until it explodes. I know how this will pan out. I can see it all unfolding already. But even though I know the email was a reflection on how he's doing right now, he said some things that hurt. Here is an excerpt:


Ugh! You know? It's hard not to let it get to me. This guy is the only person I've ever had a long-term relationship with. His opinion used to mean a lot to me. I thought he loved me. I thought we broke up mutually. I just set boundaries for BOTH of our sakes. How could he say such devaluing, degrading things to me?

rainbow, I'm going to ask T about that. I don't know. I don't think it will help me to have contact with her very soon, but I want to be able to write her when I get into graduate school, just to let her know. I want to be able to tell her big news like that. I hope she will say there is a way that I can do that. I really really hope so.

wow. Tomorrow. Tomorrow?
Please know so many of us will be with you, Jexa. You can do this. Just keep swimming.

I will be thinking of you tomorrow, Jexa.

(((((((((((((((jexa)))))))))))))))))

I've thought about you quite a bit this week. Let tomorrow be however it is.

Sending love

I second what tree said. I couldn't say it any better. Big hugs for you girl. I will be checking PC tomorrow so if you are feeling up to it check in with all of us who are thinking of you Jexa.

Session not til 6:30pm. I am at work and I just want to run away. My job is way too much pressure, from a man I don't respect.

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY I WILL EVER SEE MY T. I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO WORK TODAY. Maybe I can go home "sick"? *sigh*

Jexa - YES - go home sick - I would. Your life is more important than anything at all.

(((((((((((jexa)))))))))))

jexa i would go home sick and maybe do something calming for myself.thinking of you today

(((((((((jexa))))))))

Do you have something special planned for after you see your T tonight? I think you should plan something so that you are not alone. I'm thinking about you.

Thanks guys. I went ahead and left work, saying I felt nauseous and like I was going to throw up (it's true! But it's due to anxiety). Right now I am at Starbucks listening to the interview I just posted in another thread, and drinking coffee, and trying to just be. I walked here from my house (a 30-minute walk) and I'll walk home before therapy.

Just trying to keep breathing.. that's all I can do.. I'm trying not to be home alone because that is a bad place to be right now. Tonight I am going to try to spend the night at my friend's house, or at least stop by and hang out at her house after my session.



Feeling numb really. If I go home I know I will freak out. Trying to stay strong..

keep it up ((jexa)), you're doing great!

((((((Jexa))))))) Keeping you in my heart right now!!!!

Jexa,
checked in on you. thanks for the update. i will look again tonight and i will also post about my own t session today (about my fear of being fired) and how that went. gotta nap first i am plain old wiped out from emotions right now. i will continue to think of you today and i wish you nothing but grace tonight.

((((((((((((((((jexa))))))))))))))))))

Thinking of you right now as you are with T

(((((((((((Jexa )))))))))))))) been keeping you in mind this evening - hope you are doing OK considering how hard this is for you.